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- CHAPTER XXIV.
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- At the close of three weeks I was able to quit my chamber and move about
- the house; and on the first occasion of my sitting up in the evening I
- asked Catherine to read to me, because my eyes were weak. We were in the
- library, the master having gone to bed. She consented, rather
- unwillingly, I fancied; and imagining my sort of books did not suit her,
- I bade her please herself in the choice of what she perused. She
- selected one of her own favourites, and got forward steadily about an
- hour; then came frequent questions.
-
- "Ellen, are not you tired? Hadn't you better lie down now? You'll
- be sick keeping up so long, Ellen."
-
- "No, no, dear; I'm not tired," I returned continually. Perceiving
- me immovable, she essayed another method of showing her disrelish for
- her occupation. It changed to yawning and stretching, and--
- "Ellen, I'm tired."
-
- "Give over, then, and talk," I answered.
-
- That was worse. She fretted and sighed, and looked at her watch
- till eight, and finally went to her room, completely overdone with
- sleep, judging by her peevish, heavy look, and the constant rubbing she
- inflicted on her eyes. The following night she seemed more impatient
- still, and on the third from recovering my company she complained of a
- headache and left me. I thought her conduct odd; and having remained
- alone a long while, I resolved on going and inquiring whether she were
- better, and asking her to come and lie on the sofa, instead of upstairs
- in the dark. No Catherine could I discover upstairs, and none below. The
- servants affirmed they had not seen her. I listened at Mr. Edgar's door;
- all was silence. I returned to her apartment, extinguished my candle,
- and seated myself in the window.
-
- The moon shone bright; a sprinkling of snow covered the ground, and
- I reflected that she might possibly have taken it into her head to walk
- about the garden for refreshment. I did detect a figure creeping along
- the inner fence of the park, but it was not my young mistress. On its
- merging into the light I recognized one of the grooms. He stood a
- considerable period, viewing the carriage-road through the grounds, then
- started off at a brisk pace, as if he had detected something, and
- reappeared presently leading miss's pony; and there she was, just
- dismounted, and walking by its side. The man took his charge stealthily
- across the grass towards the stable. Cathy entered by the casement
- window of the drawing-room, and glided noiselessly up to where I awaited
- her. She put the door gently to, slipped off her snowy shoes, untied her
- hat, and was proceeding, unconscious of my espionage, to lay aside her
- mantle, when I suddenly rose and revealed myself. The surprise petrified
- her an instant; she uttered an inarticulate exclamation, and stood
- fixed.
-
- "My dear Miss Catherine," I began, too vividly impressed by her
- recent kindness to break into a scold, "where have you been riding out
- at this hour? And why should you try to deceive me by telling a tale?
- Where have you been? Speak!"
-
- "To the bottom of the park," she stammered. "I didn't tell a tale."
-
- "And nowhere else?" I demanded.
-
- "No," was the muttered reply.
-
- "O Catherine!" I cried sorrowfully. "You know you have been doing
- wrong, or you wouldn't be driven to uttering an untruth to me. That does
- grieve me. I'd rather be three months ill than hear you frame a
- deliberate lie."
-
- She sprang forward, and bursting into tears, threw her arms round
- my neck.
-
- "Well, Ellen, I'm so afraid of you being angry," she said. "Promise
- not to be angry, and you shall know the very truth. I hate to hide it."
-
- We sat down in the window-seat. I assured her I would not scold,
- whatever her secret might be, and I guessed it, of course; so she
- commenced,--
- "I've been to Wuthering Heights, Ellen, and I've never missed going
- a day since you fell ill, except thrice before and twice after you left
- your room. I gave Michael books and pictures to prepare Minny every eve
-
- ning, and to put her back in the stable. You mustn't scold him either,
- mind. I was at the Heights by halfpast six, and generally stayed till
- half-past eight, and then galloped home. It was not to amuse myself that
- I went; I was often wretched all the time. Now and then I was happy -
- once in a week perhaps. At first I expected there would be sad work
- persuading you to let me keep my word to Linton, for I had engaged to
- call again next day when we quitted him; but as you stayed upstairs on
- the morrow, I escaped that trouble. While Michael was refastening the
- lock of the park door in the afternoon, I got possession of the key, and
- told him how my cousin wished me to visit him, because he was sick and
- couldn't come to the Grange, and how papa would object to my going; and
- then I negotiated with him about the pony. He is fond of reading, and he
- thinks of leaving soon to get married; so he offered, if I would lend
- him books out of the library, to do what I wished; but I preferred
- giving him my own, and that satisfied him better.
-
- "On my second visit Linton seemed in lively spirits, and Zillah
- (that is their housekeeper) made us a clean room and a good fire, and
- told us that, as Joseph was out at a prayer-meeting, and Hareton
- Earnshaw was off with his dogs - robbing our woods of pheasants, as I
- heard afterwards - we might do what we liked. She brought me some warm
- wine and gingerbread, and appeared exceedingly good-natured; and Linton
- sat in the arm-chair, and I in the little rocking-chair on the
- hearth-stone, and we laughed and talked so merrily, and found so much to
- say. We planned where we would go, and what we would do in summer. I
- needn't repeat that, because you would call it silly.
-
- "One time, however, we were near quarrelling. He said the
- pleasantest manner of spending a hot July day was lying from morning
- till evening on a bank of heath in the middle of the moors, with the
- bees humming dreamily about among the bloom, and the larks singing high
- up overhead, and the blue sky and bright sun shining steadily and
- cloudlessly. That was his most perfect idea of heaven's happiness. Mine
- was rocking in a rustling green tree, with a west wind blowing, and
- bright white clouds flitting rapidly above, and not only larks, but
- throstles, and blackbirds, and linnets, and cuckoos pouing ou.t music on
- every side, and the moors seen at a distance, broken into cool, dusky
- dells, but close by great swells of long grass undulating in waves to
- the breeze, and woods and sounding water, and the whole world awake and
- wild with joy. He wanted all to lie in an ecstasy of peace; I wanted all
- to sparkle and dance in a glorious jubilee. I said his heaven would be
- only half alive, and he said mine would be drunk; I said I should fall
- asleep in his, and he said he could not breathe in mine, and began to
- grow very snappish. At last we agreed to try both, as soon as the right
- weather came; and then we kissed each other and were friends.
-
- "After sitting still an hour, I looked at the great room with its
- smooth uncarpeted floor, and thought how nice it would be to play in if
- we removed the table; and I asked Linton to call Zillah in to help us,
- and we'd have a game at blind-man's buff. She should try to catch us;
-
- you used to, you know, Ellen. He wouldn't. There was no pleasure in it,
- he said. But he consented to play at ball with me. We found two in a
- cupboard, among a heap of old toys, tops, and hoops, and battledores,
- and shuttlecocks. One was marked C. and the other H. I wished to have
- the C., because that stood for Catherine, and the H. might be for
- Heathcliff, his name; but the bran came out of H., and Linton didn't
- like it. I beat him constantly, and he got cross again, and coughed, and
- returned to his chair. That night, though, he easily recovered his
- good-humour. He was charmed with two or three pretty songs - your songs,
- Ellen; and when I was obliged to go he begged and entreated me to come
- the following evening, and I promised. Minny and I went flying home as
- light as air, and I dreamt of Wuthering Heights and my sweet darling
- cousin till morning.
-
- "On the morrow I was sad, partly because you were poorly, and
- partly that I wished my father knew and approved of my excursions; but
- it was beautiful moonlight after tea, and as I rode on the gloom
- cleared. I shall have another happy evening, I thought to myself; and,
- what delights me more, my pretty Linton will. I trotted up their garden,
- and was turning round to the back, when that fellow Earnshaw met me,
- took my bridle, and bade me go in by the front entrance. He patted
- Minny's neck, and said she was a bonny beast, and appeared as if he
- wanted me to speak to him. I only told him to leave my horse alone, or
- else it would kick him. He answered in his vulgar accent, 'It wouldn't
- do mitch hurt if it did,' and surveyed its legs with a smile. I was
- half inclined to make it try; however, he moved off to open the door,
- and as he raised the latch he looked up to the inscription above, and
- said, with a stupid mixture of awkwardness and elation,--
- " 'Miss Catherine, I can read yon now.'
-
- " 'Wonderful!' I exclaimed. 'Pray let us hear you; you are grown
- clever.'
-
- "He spelt, and drawled over by syllables, the name, 'Hareton
- Earnshaw.'
-
- " 'And the flgures?' I cried encouragingly, perceiving that he came
- to a dead halt.
-
- " 'I cannot tell them yet,' he answered.
-
- " 'Oh, you dunce!' I said, laughing heartily at his failure.
-
- "The fool stared, with a grin hovering about his lips, and a scowl
- gathering over his eyes, as if uncertain whether he might not join in my
- mirth - whether it were not pleasant familiarity, or what it really was,
- contempt. I settled his doubts by suddenly retrieving my gravity and
- desiring him to walk away, for I came to see Linton, not him. He
- reddened - I saw that by the moonlight - dropped his hand from the
- latch, and skulked off, a picture of mortified vanity. He imagined
- himself to be as accomplished as Linton, I suppose, be cause he could
- spell his own name, and was marvellously discomfited that I didn't think
- the same."
-
- "Stop, Miss Catherine dear!" I interrupted. "I shall not scold, but
- I don't like your conduct there. If you had remembered that Hareton was
- your cousin as much as Master Heathcliff, you would have felt how
- improper it was to behave in that way. At least, it was praiseworthy
- ambition for him to desire to be as accomplished as Linton, and probably
- he did not learn merely to show off. You had made him ashamed of his
- ignorance before, I have no doubt, and he wished to remedy it and please
- you. To sneer at his imperfect attempt was very bad breeding. Had you
- been brought up in his circumstances, would you be less rude? He was as
- quick and as intelligent a child as ever you were, and I'm hurt that he
- should be despised now, because that base Heathcliff has treated him so
- unjustly."
-
- "Well, Ellen, you won't cry about it, will you?" she exclaimed,
- surprised at my earnestness. "But wait, and you shall hear if he conned
- his A B C to please me, and if it were worth while being civil to the
- brute. I entered. Linton was lying on the settle, and half got up to
- welcome me.
-
- " 'I'm ill to-night, Catherine, love,' he said; 'and you must have
- all the talk, and let me listen. Come and sit by me. I was sure you
- wouldn't break your word, and I'll make you promise again before you
- go.'
-
- "I knew now that I mustn't tease him, as he was ill; and I spoke
- softly, and put no questions, and avoided irritating him in any way. I
- had brought some of my nicest books for him. He asked me to read a
- little of one, and I was about to comply, when Earnshaw burst the door
- open, having gathered venom with reflection. He advanced direct to us,
- seized Linton by the arm, and swung him off the seat.
-
- " 'Get to thy own room!' he said, in a voice almost inarticulate
- with passion; and his face looked swelled and furious. 'Take her there
- if she comes to see thee; thou shalln't keep me out of this. Begone wi'
- ye both!'
-
- "He swore at us, and left Linton no time to answer, nearly throwing
- him into the kitchen; and he clenched his fist as I followed, seemingly
- longing to knock me down. I was afraid for a moment, and I let one
- volume fall; he kicked it after me, and shut us out. I heard a
- malignant, crackly laugh by the fire, and turning, beheld that odious
- Joseph standing rubbing his bony hands, and quivering.
-
- " 'I wer sure he'd sarve ye out! He's a grand lad! He's getten t'
- raight sperrit in him! He knaws - ay, he knaws as weel as I do - who sud
- be t' maister yonder! Ech, ech, ech! He made ye skift properly! Ech,
- ech, ech!'
-
- " 'Where must we go?' I asked of my cousin, disregarding the old
- wretch's mockery.
-
- "Linton was white and trembling. He was not pretty then, Ellen - oh
- no! He looked frightful, for his thin face and large eyes were wrought
- into an expression of frantic, powerless fury. He grasped the handle of
- the door, and shook it; it was fastened inside.
-
- " 'If you don't let me in I'll kill you! if you don't let me in
- I'll kill you!' he rather shrieked than said. 'Devil! devil! I'll kill
- you! I'll kill you!'
-
- "Joseph uttered his croaking laugh again.
-
- " 'Thear, that's t' father!' he cried. 'That's father! We've allas
- summut o' either side in us. Niver heed, Hareton, lad - dunnut be
- 'feared - he cannot get at thee!'
-
- "I took hold of Linton's hands and tried to pull him away, but he
- shrieked so shockingly that I dared not proceed. At last his cries were
- choked by a dreadful fit of coughing. Blood gushed from his mouth, and
- he fell on the ground. I ran into the yard, sick with terror, and called
- for Zillah as loud as I could. She soon heard me. She was milking the
- cows in a shed behind the barn, and hurrying from her work she inquired
- what there was to do. I hadn't breath to explain. Dragging her in, I
- looked about for Linton. Earnshaw had come out to examine the mischief
- he had caused, and he was then conveying the poor thing upstairs. Zillah
- and I ascended after him; but he stopped me at the top of the steps, and
- said I shouldn't go in - I must go home. I exclaimed that he had killed
- Linton, and I would enter. Joseph locked the door, and declared I
- should do 'no sich stuff,' and asked me whether I were 'bahn to be as
- mad as him.' I stood crying till the housekeeper reappeared. She
- affirmed he would be better in a bit, but he couldn't do with that
- shrieking and din; and she took me and nearly carried me into the house.
-
- "Ellen, I was ready to tear my hair off my head. I sobbed and wept
- so that my eyes were almost blind; and the ruffian you have such
- sympathy with stood opposite, presuming every now and then to bid me
- 'wisht,' and denying that it was his fault; and finally, frightened by
- my assertions that I would tell papa, and that he should be put in
- prison and hanged, he commenced blubbering himself, and hurried out to
- hide his cowardly agitation. Still I was not rid of him. When at length
- they compelled me to depart, and I had got some hundred yards off the
- premises, he suddenly issued from the shadow of the roadside, and
- checked Minny and took hold of me.
-
- " 'Miss Catherine, I'm ill grieved,' he began, 'but it's rayther
- too bad - - '
-
- "I gave him a cut with my whip, thinking perhaps he would murder
- me. He let go, thundering one of his horrid curses, and I galloped home
- more than half out of my senses.
-
- "I didn't bid you good-night that evening, and I didn't go to
- Wuthering Heights the next. I wished to go exceedingly, but I was
- strangely excited, and dreaded to hear that Linton was dead,
- sometimes, and sometimes shuddered at the thought of encountering
- Hareton. On the third day I took courage - at least I couldn't bear
- longer suspense, and stole off once more. I went at five o'clock, and
- walked, fancying I might manage to creep into the house and up to
- Linton's room unobserved. However, the dogs gave notice of my approach.
- Zillah received me, and saying 'the lad was mending nicely,' showed me
- into a small, tidy, carpeted apartment, where, to my inexpressible joy,
- I beheld Linton laid on a little sofa, reading one of my books. But he
- would neither speak to me nor look at me through a whole hour, Ellen; he
- has such an unhappy temper. And what quite confounded me, when he did
- open his mouth it was to utter the falsehood that I had occasioned the
- uproar, and Hareton was not to blame! Unable to reply, except
- passionately, I got up and walked from the room. He sent after me a
- faint 'Catherine!' He did not reckon on being answered so. But I
- wouldn't turn back; and the morrow was the second day on which I stayed
- at home, nearly determined to visit him no more. But it was so miserable
- going to bed and getting up, and never hearing anything about him, that
- my resolution melted into air before it was properly formed. It had
- appeared wrong to take the journey once, now it seemed wrong to refrain.
- Michael came to ask if he must saddle Minny; I said 'Yes,' and
- considered myself doing a duty as she bore me over the hills. I was
- forced to pass the front windows to get to the court; it was no use
- trying to conceal my presence.
-
- " 'Young master is in the house,' said Zillah, as she saw me making
- for the parlour. I went in. Earnshaw was there also, but he quitted the
- room directly. Linton sat in the great armchair half asleep. Walking up
- to the fire, I began in a serious tone, partly meaning it to be true,--
- " 'As you don't like me, Linton, and as you think I come on purpose
- to hurt you, and pretend that I do so every time, this is our last
- meeting. Let us say good-bye; and tell Mr. Heathcliff that you have no
- wish to see me, and that he mustn't invent any more falsehoods on the
- subject.'
-
- " 'Sit down and take your hat off, Catherine,' he answered. 'You
- are so much happier than I am, you ought to be better. Papa talks enough
- of my defects and shows enough scorn of me to make it natural I should
- doubt myself. I doubt whether I am not altogether as worthless as he
- calls me frequently; and then I feel so cross and bitter, I hate
- everybody! I am worthless, and bad in temper, and bad in spirit, almost
- always, and if you choose you may say good-bye; you'll get rid of an
- annoyance. Only, Catherine, do me this justice: believe that if I might
- be as sweet, and as kind, and as good as you are, I would be - as
- willingly, and more so, than as happy and as healthy. And believe that
- your kindness has made me love you deeper than if I deserved your love;
- and though I couldn't and cannot help showing my nature to you, I regret
- it and repent it, and shall regret and repent it till I die!'
-
- "I felt he spoke the truth, and I felt I must forgive him; and
- though he should quarrel the next moment, I must forgive him again. We
- were reconciled; but we cried, both of us, the whole time I stayed - not
- entirely for sorrow, yet I was sorry Linton had that distorted nature.
- He'll never let his friends be at ease, and he'll never be at ease
- himself. I have always gone to his little parlour since that night,
- because his father returned the day after.
-
- "About three times, I think, we have been merry and hopeful, as we
- were the first evening; the rest of my visits were dreary and troubled -
- now with his selfishness and spite, and now with his sufferings; but
- I've learned to endure the former with nearly as little resentment as
- the latter. Mr. Heathcliff purposely avoids me; I have hardly seen him
- at all. Last Sunday, indeed, coming earlier than usual, I heard him
- abusing poor Linton cruelly for his conduct of the night before. I can't
- tell how he knew of it, unless he listened. Linton had certainly behaved
- provokingly. However, it was the business of nobody but me, and I
- interrupted Mr. Heathcliff's lecture by entering and telling him so. He
- burst into a laugh, and went away, saying he was glad I took that view
- of the matter. Since then I've told Linton he must whisper his bitter
- things. Now, Ellen, you have heard all. I can't be prevented from going
- to Wuthering Heights except by inflicting misery on two people; whereas,
- if you'll only not tell papa, my going need disturb the tranquillity of
- none. You'll not tell, will you? It will be very heartless if you do."
-
- "I'll make up my mind on that point by to-morrow, Miss Catherine,"
- I replied. "It requires some study; and so I'll leave you to your rest,
- and go think it over."
-
- I thought it over aloud, in my master's presence, walking straight
- from her room to his, and relating the whole story, with the exception
- of her conversations with her cousin, and any mention of Hareton. Mr.
- Linton was alarmed and distressed, more than he would acknowledge to me.
- In the morning Catherine learned my betrayal of her confidence, and she
- learned also that her secret visits were to end. In vain she wept and
- writhed against the interdict, and implored her father to have pity on
- Linton. All she got to comfort her was a promise that he would write and
- give him leave to come to the Grange when he pleased, but explaining
- that he must no longer expect to see Catherine at Wuthering Heights.
- Perhaps, had he been aware of his nephew's disposition and state of
- health, he would have seen fit to withhold even that slight consolation.
-
-
- CHAPTER XXV.
-
-
- These things happened last winter, sir," said Mrs. Dean - "hardly more
- than a year ago. Last winter I did not think, at another twelve months'
- end, I should be amusing a stranger to the family with relating them!
- Yet who knows how long you'll be a stranger? You're too young to rest
- always contented, living by yourself, and I some way fancy no one could
- see Catherine Linton and not love her. You smile; but why do you look so
- lively and interested when I talk about her? and why have you asked me
- to hang her picture over your fireplace? and why - - "
-
- "Stop, my good friend!" I cried. "It may be very possible that I
- should love her, but would she love me? I doubt it too much to venture
- my tranquillity by running into temptation. And then my home is not
- here. I'm of the busy world, and to its arms I must return. Go on. Was
- Catherine obedient to her father's commands?"
-
- "She was," continued the housekeeper. "Her affection for him was
- still the chief sentiment in her heart; and he spoke without anger - he
- spoke in the deep tenderness of one about to leave his treasure amid
- perils and foes, where his remembered words would be the only aid that
- he could bequeath to guide her. He said to me a few days afterwards,--
- " 'I wish my nephew would write, Ellen, or call. Tell me sincerely
- what you think of him. Is he changed for the better, or is there a
- prospect of improvement as he grows a man?'
-
- " 'He's very delicate, sir,' I replied, 'and scarcely likely to
- reach manhood; but this I can say, he does not resemble his father. And
- if Miss Catherine had the misfortune to marry him, he would not be
- beyond her control, unless she were extremely and foolishly indulgent.
- However, master, you'll have plenty of time to get acquainted with him,
- and see whether he would suit her. It wants four years and more to his
- being of age.'
-
- Edgar sighed, and walking to the window, looked out towards
- Gimmerton Kirk. It was a misty afternoon, but the February sun shone
- dimly, and we could just distinguish the two fir-trees in the yard, and
- the sparely scattered gravestones.
-
- "I've prayed often," he half soliloquized, "for the approach of
- what is coming, and now I begin to shrink and fear it. I thought the
- memory of the hour I came down that glen a bridegroom would be less
- sweet than the anticipation that I was soon, in a few months, or
- possibly weeks, to be carried up and laid in its lonely hollow. Ellen,
- I've been very happy with my little Cathy; through winter nights and
- summer days she was a living hope at my side. But I've been as happy
- musing by myself among those stones, under that old church, lying
- through the long June evenings on the green mound of her mother's grave,
- and wishing, yearning for the time when I might lie beneath it. What can
- I do for Cathy? How must I quit her? I'd not care one moment for
- Linton being Heathcliff's son, nor for his taking her from me, if he
- could console her for my loss. I'd not care that Heathcliff gained his
- ends, and triumphed in robbing me of my last blessing. But should Linton
- be unworthy - only a feeble tool to his father--I cannot abandon her to
- him. And, hard though it be to crush her buoyant spirit, I must
- persevere in making her sad while I live, and leaving her solitary when
- I die. Darling! I'd rather resign her to God, and lay her in the earth
- before me."
-
- "Resign her to God as it is, sir," I answered; "and if we should
- lose you - which may He forbid - under His providence I'll stand her
- friend and counsellor to the last. Miss Catherine is a good girl; I
- don't fear that she will go wilfully wrong; and people who do their duty
- are always finally rewarded."
-
- Spring advanced, yet my master gathered no real strength, though he
- resumed his walks in the grounds with his daughter. To her inexperienced
- notions this itself was a sign of convalescence. And then his cheek was
- often flushed, and his eyes were bright; she felt sure of his recovery.
- On her seventeenth birthday he did not visit the churchyard. It was
- raining, and I observed,--
- "You'll surely not go out to-night, sir?" He answered,--
- "No, I'll defer it this year a little longer."
-
- He wrote again to Linton, expressing his great desire to see him;
- and had the invalid been presentable, I've no doubt his father would
- have permitted him to come. As it was, being instructed, he returned an
- answer, intimating that Mr. Heathcliff objected to his calling at the
- Grange; but his uncle's kind remembrance delighted him, and he hoped to
- meet him sometimes in his rambles, and personaliy to petition that his
- cousin and he might not remain long so utterly divided.
-
- That part of his letter was simple and probably his own. Heathcliff
- knew he could plead eloquently for Catherine's company, then.
-
- "I do not ask," he said, "that she may visit here, but am I never
- to see her because my father forbids me to go to her home, and you
- forbid her to come to mine? Do, now and then, ride with her towards the
- Heights, and let us exchange a few words in your presence. We have done
- nothing to deserve this separation; and you are not angry with me - you
- have no reason to dislike me, you allow, yourself. Dear uncle, send me a
- kind note to-morrow, and leave to join you anywhere you please, except
- at Thrushcross Grange. I believe an interview would convince you that my
- father's character is not mine. He affirms I am more your nephew than
- his son; and though I have faults which render me unworthy of Catherine,
- she has excused them, and for her sake you should also. You inquire
- after my health. It is better; but while I remain cut off from all hope,
- and doomed to solitude or the society of those who never did and never
- will like me, how can I be cheerful and well?"
-
- Edgar, though he felt for the boy, could not consent to grant his
- request, because he could not accompany Catherine. He said in summer
- perhaps they might meet. Meantime he wished him to continue writing at
- intervals, and engaged to give him what advice and comfort he was able
- by letter, being well aware of his hard position in his family. Linton
- complied, and had he been unrestrained, would probably have spoiled all
- by filling his epistles with complaints and lamentations; but his father
- kept a sharp watch over him, and of course insisted on every line that
- my master sent being shown. So, instead of penning his peculiar personal
- sufferings and distresses, the themes constantly uppermost in his
- thoughts, he harped on the cruel obligation of being held asunder from
- his friend and love, and gently intimated that Mr. Linton must allow an
- interview soon, or he should fear he was purposely deceiving him with
- empty promises.
-
- Cathy was a powerful ally at home, and between them they at length
- persuaded my master to acquiesce in their having a ride or a walk
- together about once a week, under my guardianship, and on the moors
- nearest the Grange - for June found him still declining. Though he had
- set aside yearly a portion of his income for my young lady's fortune, he
- had a natural desire that she might retain - or at least return in a
- short time to--the house of her ancestors; and he considered her only
- prospect of doing that was by a union with his heir. He had no idea
- that the latter was failing almost as fast as himself, nor had any one,
- I believe. No doctor visited the Heights, and no one saw Master
- Heathcliff to make report of his condition among us. I, for my part,
- began to fancy my forebodings were false, and that he must be actually
- rallying, when he mentioned riding and walking on the moors, and seemed
- so earnest in pursuing his object. I could not picture a father treating
- a dying child as tyrannically and wickedly as I afterwards learned
- Heathcliff had treated him, to compel this apparent eagerness, his
- efforts redoubling the more imminently his avaricious and unfeeling
- plans were threatened with defeat by death.
-
- CHAPTER XXVI.
-
-
- Summer was already past its prime when Edgar reluctantly yielded his
- assent to their entreaties, and Catherine and I set out on our first
- ride to join her cousin. It was a close, sultry day, devoid of sunshine,
- but with a sky too dappled and hazy to threaten rain; and our place of
- meeting had been fixed at the guidestone by the crossroads. On arriving
- there, however, a little herd-boy, dispatched as a messenger, told us
- that--
- "Maister Linton wer just o' this side th' Heights, and he'd be
- mitch obleeged to us to gang on a bit further."
-
- "Then Master Linton has forgot the first injunction of his uncle,"
- I observed. "He bade us keep on the Grange land, and here we are off at
- once."
-
- "Well, we'll turn our horses' heads round when we reach him,"
- answered my companion; "our excursion shall lie towards home."
-
- But when we reached him, and that was scarcely a quarter of a mile
- from his own door, we found he had no horse, and we were forced to
- dismount and leave ours to graze. He lay on the heath awaiting our
- approach, and did not rise till we came within a few yards. Then he
- walked so feebly, and looked so pale, that I immediately exclaimed,--
-
- "Why, Master Heathcliff, you are not fit for enjoying a ramble this
- morning. How ill you do look!"
-
- Catherine surveyed him with grief and astonishment. She changed the
- ejaculation of joy on her lips to one of alarm, and the congratulation
- on their long-postponed meeting to an anxious inquiry whether he were
- worse than usual.
-
- "No; better - better!" he panted, trembling, and retaining her hand
- as if he needed its support, while his large blue eyes wandered timidly
- over her, the hollowness round them transforming to haggard wildness the
- languid expression they once possessed.
-
- "But you have been worse," persisted his cousin--
- "worse than when I saw you last. You are thinner, and - - "
-
- "I'm tired," he interrupted hurriedly. "It is too hot for walking;
- let us rest here. And in the morning I often feel sick. Papa says I grow
- so fast."
-
- Badly satisfied, Cathy sat down, and he reclined beside her.
-
- "This is something like your paradise," said she, making an effort
- at cheerfulness. "You recollect the two days we agreed to spend in the
- place and way each thought pleasantest? This is nearly yours, only there
- are clouds; but then they are so soft and mellow, it is nicer than
- sunshine. Next week, if you can, we'll ride down to the Grange Park and
- try mine."
-
- Linton did not appear to remember what she talked of, and he had
- evidently great difficulty in sustaining any kind of conversation. His
- lack of interest in the subjects she started, and his equal incapacity
- to contribute to her entertainment, were so obvious that she could not
- conceal her disappointment. An indefinite alteration had come over his
- whole person and manner. The pettishness that might be caressed into
- fondness had yielded to a listless apathy; there was less of the peevish
- temper of a child which frets and teases on purpose to be soothed, and
- more of the self-absorbed moroseness of a confirmed invalid, repelling
- consolation, and ready to regard the good-humoured mirth of others as an
- insult. Catherine perceived, as well as I did, that he held it rather a
- punishment than a gratification to endure our company, and she made no
- scruple of proposing, presently, to depart. That proposal unexpectedly
- roused Linton from his lethargy, and threw him into a strange state of
- agitation. He glanced fearfully towards the Heights, begging she would
- remain another half-hour at least.
-
- "But I think," said Cathy, "you'd be more comfortable at home than
- sitting here; and I cannot amuse you to-day, I see, by my tales, and
- songs, and chatter. You have grown wiser than I in these six months; you
- have little taste for my diversions now - or else, if I could amuse you,
- I'd willingly stay."
-
- "Stay to rest yourself," he replied. "And, Catherine, don't think
- or say that I'm very unwell. It is the heavy weather and heat that make
- me dull; and I walked about, before you came, a great deal for me. Tell
- uncle I'm in tolerable health, will you?"
-
- "I'll tell him that you say so, Linton. I couldn't affirm that you
- are," observed my young lady, wondering at his pertinacious assertion of
- what was evidently an untruth.
-
- "And be here again next Thursday," continued he, shunning her
- puzzled gaze. "And give him my thanks for permitting you to come - my
- best thanks, Catherine. And - and if you did meet my father, and he
- asked you about me, don't lead him to suppose that I've been extremely
- silent and stupid. Don't look sad and downcast, as you are doing; he'll
- be angry."
-
- "I care nothing for his anger," exclaimed Cathy, imagining she
- would be its object.
-
- "But I do," said her cousin, shuddering. "Don't provoke him against
- me, Catherine, for he is very hard."
-
- "Is he severe to you, Master Heathcliff?" I inquired.
-
- "Has he grown weary of indulgence, and passed from passive to
- active hatred?"
-
- Linton looked at me, but did not answer; and after keeping her seat
- by his side another ten minutes, during which his head fell drowsily
- on his breast, and he uttered nothing except suppressed moans of
- exhaustion or pain, Cathy began to seek solace in looking for
- bilberries, and sharing the produce of her researches with me. She did
- not offer them to him, for she saw further notice would only weary and
- annoy.
-
- "Is it half an hour now, Ellen?" she whispered in my ear at last.
- "I can't tell why we should stay. He's asleep, and papa will be wanting
- us back."
-
- "Well, we must not leave him asleep," I answered.
-
- "Wait till he wakes, and be patient. You were mighty eager to set
- off, but your longing to see poor Linton has soon evaporated."
-
- "Why did he wish to see me?" returned Catherine.
-
- "In his crossest humours, formerly, I liked him better than I do in
- his present curious mood. It's just as if it were a task he was
- compelled to perform - this interview - for fear his father should scold
- him. But I'm hardly going to come to give Mr. Heathcliff pleasure,
- whatever reason he may have for ordering Linton to undergo this penance.
- And though I'm glad he's better in health, I'm sorry he's so much Iess
- pleasant, and so much less affectionate to me."
-
- "You think he is better in health, then?" I said.
-
- "Yes," she answered, "because he always made such a great deal of
- his sufferings, you know. He is not tolerably well, as he told me to
- tell papa; but he's better, very likely."
-
- "There you differ with me, Miss Cathy," I remarked.
-
- "I should conjecture him to be far worse."
-
- Linton here started from his slumber in bewildered terror, and
- asked if any one had called his name.
-
- "No," said Catherine, "unless in dreams. I cannot conceive how you
- manage to doze out of doors, in the morning."
-
- "I thought I heard my father," he gasped, glancing up to the
- frowning nab above us. "You are sure nobody spoke?"
-
- "Quite sure," replied his cousin. "Only Ellen and I were disputing
- concerning your health. Are you truly stronger, Linton, than when we
- separated in winter? If you be, I'm certain one thing is not stronger -
- your regard for me. Speak! Are you?"
-
- The tears gushed from Linton's eyes as he answered,
-
- "Yes, yes, I am!" And still under the spell of the imaginary voice,
- his gaze wandered up and down to detect its owner.
-
- Cathy rose. "For to-day we must part," she said.
-
- "And I won't conceal that I have been sadly disappointed with our
- meeting, though I'll mention it to nobody but you - not that I stand in
- awe of Mr. Heathcliff."
-
- "Hush!" murmured Linton; "for God's sake, hush! He's coming." And
- he clung to Catherine's arm, striving to detain her; but at that
- announcement she hastily disengaged herself and whistled to Minny, who
- obeyed her like a dog.
-
- "I'll be here next Thursday," she cried, springing to the saddle.
- "Good-bye. - Quick, Ellenl" And so we left him, scarcely conscious of
- our departure, so absorbed was he in anticipating his father's approach.
-
- Before we reached home, Catherine's displeasure softened into a
- perplexed sensation of pity and regret, largely blended with vague,
- uneasy doubts about Linton's actual circumstances, physical and social,
- in which I partook, though I counselled her not to say much, for a
- second journey would make us better judges. My master requested an
- account of our ongoings. His nephew's offering of thanks was duly
- delivered, Miss Cathy gently touching on the rest. I also threw little
- light on his inquiries, for I hardly knew what to hide and what to
- reveal.
-
- CHAPTER XXVII.
-
-
- Seven days glided away, every one marking its course by the henceforth
- rapid alteration of Edgar Linton's state. The havoc that months had
- previously wrought was now emulated by the inroads of hours. Catherine
- we would fain have deluded yet, but her own quick spirit refused to
- delude her; it divined in secret, and brooded on the dreadful
- probability, gradually ripening into certainty. She had not the heart to
- mention her ride when Thursday came round. I mentioned it for her, and
- obtained permission to order her out of doors; for the library, where
- her father stopped a short time daily - the brief period he could bear
- to sit up - and his chamber, had become her whole world. She grudged
- each moment that did not find her bending over his pillow or seated by
- his side. Her countenance grew wan with watching and sorrow, and my
- master gladly dismissed her to what he flattered himself would be a
- happy change of scene and society, drawing comfort from the hope that
- she would not now be left entirely alone after his death.
-
- He had a fixed idea, I guessed by several observations he let fall,
- that, as his nephew resembled him in person, he would resemble him in
- mind, for Linton's litters bore few or no indications of his defective
- characters. And I, through pardonable weakness, refrained from
- correcting the error, asking myself what good there would be in
- disturbing his last moments with information that he had neither power
- nor opportunity to turn to account.
-
- We deferred our excursion till the afternoon - a golden afternoon
- of August, every breath from the hills so full of life that it seemed,
- whoever respired it, though dying, might revive. Catherine's face was
- just like the landscape - shadows and sunshine flitting over it in rapid
- succession; but the shadows rested longer, and the sunshine was more
- transient; and her poor little heart reproached itself for even that
- passing forgetfulness of its cares.
-
- We discerned Linton watching at the same spot he had selected
- before. My young mistress alighted, and told me that, as she was
- resolved to stay a very little while, I had better hold the pony and
- remain on horseback; but I dissented. I wouldn't risk losing sight of
- the charge committed to me a minute, so we climbed the slope of heath
- together. Master Heathcliff received us with greater animation on this
- occasion - not the animation of high spirits though, nor yet of joy; it
- looked more like fear.
-
- "It is late," he said, speaking short and with difficulty. "Is not
- your father very ill? I thought you wouldn't come."
-
- "Why won't you be candid?" cried Catherine, swallowing her
- greeting. "Why cannot you say at once you don't want me? It is strange,
- Linton, that for the second time you have brought me here on purpose,
- apparently, to distress us both, and for no reason besides."
-
- Linton shivered, and glanced at her, half supplicating, half
- ashamed; but his cousin's patience was not sufficient to endure this
- enigmatical behaviour.
-
- "My father is very ill," she said; "and why am I called from his
- bedside? Why didn't you send to absolve me from my promise when you
- wished I wouldn't keep it? Come! I desire an explanation; playing and
- trifling are completely banished out of my mind, and I can't dance
- attendance on your affectations now!"
-
- "My affectations!" he murmured; "what are they? For Heaven's sake,
- Catherine, don't look so angryl Despise me as much as you please. I am a
- worthless, cowardly wretch - I can't be scorned enough; but I'm too mean
- for your anger. Hate my father, and spare me for contempt."
-
- "Nonsense!" cried Catherine in a passion. "Foolish, silly boy! And
- there! he trembles, as if I were really going to touch him! You needn't
- bespeak contempt, Linton; anybody will have it spontaneously at your
- service. Get off! I shall return home. It is folly dragging you from the
- hearthstone, and pretending - what do we pretend? Let go my frock! If I
- pitied you for crying and looking so very frightened, you should spurn
- such pity. - Ellen, tell him how disgraceful this conduct is.
- - Rise, and don't degrade yourself into an abject reptile--don't!"
-
- With streaming face and an expression of agony Linton had thrown
- his nerveless frame along the ground. He seemed convulsed with exquisite
- terror.
-
- "Oh!" he sobbed, "I cannot bear it! Catherine, Catherine, I'm a
- traitor too, and I dare not tell you! But leave me, and I shall be
- kiljed! Dear Catherine, my life is in your hands; and you have said you
- loved me, and if you did, it wouldn't harm you. You'll not go then,
- kind, sweet, good Catherine? And perhaps you will consent
- - and he'll let me die with you!"
-
- My young lady, on witnessing his intense anguish, stooped to raise
- him. The old feeling of indulgent tenderness overcame her vexation, and
- she grew thoroughly moved and alarmed.
-
- "Consent to what?" she asked. "To stay? Tell me the meaning of this
- strange talk, and I will. You contradict your own words and distract me.
- Be calm and frank, and confess at once all that weighs on your heart.
- You wouldn't injure me, Linton, would you? You wouldn't let any enemy
- hurt me, if you could prevent it? I'll believe you are a coward for
- yourself, but not a cowardly betrayer of your best friend."
-
- "But my father threatened me," gasped the boy, clasping his
- attenuated fingers, "and I dread him - I dread him! I dare not tell!"
-
- "Oh, well," said Catherine, with scornful compassion, "keep your
- secret. I'm no coward. Save yourself. I'm not afraid."
-
- Her magnanimity provoked his tears. He wept wildly, kissing her
- supporting hands, and yet could not summon courage to speak out. I was
- cogitating what the mystery might be, and determined Catherine should
- never suffer to benefit him or any one else, by my goodwill, when,
- hearing a rustle among the ling, I looked up and saw Mr. Heathcliff
- almost close upon us, descending the Heights. He didn't cast a glance
- towards my companions, though they were sufficiently near for Linton's
- sobs to be audible, but hailing me in the almost hearty tone he assumed
- to none besides, and the sincerity of which I couldn't avoid doubtiing,
- he said,--
- "It is something to see you so near to my house, Nelly. How are you
- at the Grange? Let us hear. The rumour goes," he added in a lower tone,
- "that Edgar Linton is on his deathbed; perhaps they exaggerate his
- illness?"
-
- "No. My master is dying," I replied; "it is true enough. A sad
- thing it will be for us all, but a blessing for him."
-
- "How long will he last, do you think?" he asked.
-
- "I don't know," I said.
-
- "Because," he continued, looking at the two young people, who were
- fixed under his eye - Linton ap peared as if he could not venture to
- stir or raise his head, and Catherine could not move on his
- account--"because that lad yonder seems determined to beat me, and I'd
- thank his uncle to be quick and go before him. Hullo! has the whelp been
- playing that game long? I did give him some lessons about snivelling. Is
- he pretty lively with Miss Linton generally?"
-
- "Lively? No; he has shown the greatest distress," I answered. "To
- see him, I should say that, instead of rambling with his sweetheart on
- the hills, he ought to be in bed, under the hands of a doctor."
-
- "He shall be in a day or two," muttered Heathcliff. "But first - -
- Get up, Linton! get up!" he shouted.
- "Don't grovel on the ground there. Up, this moment!"
-
- Linton had sunk prostrate again in another paroxysm of helpless
- fear, caused by his father's glance towards him, I suppose; there was
- nothing else to produce such humiliation. He made several efforts to
- obey, but his little strength was annihilated for the time, and he fell
- back again with a moan. Mr. Heathcliff advanced, and lifted him to lean
- against a ridge of turf.
-
- "Now," said he, with curbed ferocity, "I'm getting angry, and if
- you don't command that paltry spirit of yours - - Damn you! get up
- directly!"
-
- "I will, father," he panted. "Only let me alone, or I shall faint.
- I've done as you wished, I'm sure. Cathernie will tell you that I -
- that I - have been cheerful - Ah! keep by me, Catherine. Give me your
- hand."
-
- "Take mine," said his father. "Stand on your feet. There now;
- she'll lend you her arm. That's right; look at her. - You would imagine
- I was the devil himself, Miss Linton, to excite such horror. Be so kind
- as to walk home with him, will you? He shudders if I touch him."
-
- "Linton dear!" whispered Catherine, "I can't go to Wuthering
- Heights; papa has forbidden me. He'll not harm you. Why are you so
- afraid?"
-
- "I can never re-enter that house," he answered. "I'm not to
- re-enter it without you."
-
- "Stop!" cried his father. "We'll respect Catherine's filial
- scruples - Nelly, take him in, and l'll follow your advice concerning
- the doctor without delay."
-
- "You'll do well," replied I. "But I must remain with my mistress;
- to mind your son is not my business."
-
- "You are very stiff," said Heathcliff - "I know that; but you'll
- force me to pinch the baby and make it scream before it moves your
- charity. - Come, then, my hero. Are you willing to return, escorted by
- me?"
-
- He approached once more, and made as if he would seize the fragile
- being; but, shrinking back, Linton clung to his cousin, and implored her
- to accompany him, with a frantic importunity that admitted no denial.
- However I disapproved, I couldn't hinder her. Indeed, how could she have
- refused him herself? What was filling him with dread we had no means of
- discerning; but there he was, powerless under its gripe, and any
- addition seemed capable of shocking him into idiocy. We reached the
- threshold. Catherine walked in, and I stood waiting till she had
- conducted the invalid to a chair, expecting her out immediately, when
- Mr. Heathcliff, pushing me forward, exclaimed,--
- "My house is not stricken with the plague, Nelly, and I have a mind
- to be hospitable to-day. Sit down, and allow me to shut the door."
-
- He shut and locked it also. I started.
-
- "You shall have tea before you go home," he added. "I am by myself.
- Hareton is gone with some cattle to the Lees, and Zillah and Joseph are
- off on a journey of pleasure; and though I'm used to being alone, I'd
- rather have some interesting company, if I can get it.
- - Miss Linton, take your seat by him. I give you what I have; the
- present is hardly worth accepting, but I have nothing else to offer. It
- is Linton I mean. How she does stare! It's odd what a savage feeling I
- have to anything that seems afraid of me. Had I been born where laws are
- less strict and tastes less dainty, I should treat myself to a slow
- vivisection of those two as an evening's amusement."
-
- He drew in his breath, struck the table, and swore to himself, "By
- hell, I hate them!"
-
- "I'm not afraid of you!" exclaimed Catherine, who could not hear
- the latter part of his speech. She stepped close up, her black eyes
- flashing with passion and resolution. "Give me that key. I will have
- it!" she said. "I wouldn't eat or drink here if I were starving."
-
- Heathcliff had the key in his hand that remained on the table. He
- looked up, seized with a sort of surprise at her boldness, or possibly
- reminded by her voice and glance of the person from whom she had
- inherited it. She snatched at the instrument, and half succeeded in
- getting it out of his loosened fingers; but her action recalled him to
- the present - he recovered it speedily.
-
- "Now, Catherine Linton," he said, "stand off, or I shall knock you
- down, and that will make Mrs. Dean mad."
-
- Regardless of this warning, she captured his closed hand and its
- contents again. "We will go!" she repeated, exerting her utmost efforts
- to cause the iron muscles to relax; and finding that her nails made no
- impression, she applied her teeth pretty sharply. Heathcliff glanced at
- me a glance that kept me from interfering a moment. Catherine was too
- intent on his fingers to notice his face. He opened them suddenly, and
- resigned the object of dispute; but ere she had well secured it, he
- seized her with the liberated hand, and pulling her on his knee,
- administered with the other a shower of terrific slaps on both sides
- of the head, each sufficient to have fulfilled his threat, had she been
- able to fall.
-
- At this diabolical violence I rushed on him furiously. "You
- villain!" I began to cry, "you villain!" A touch on the chest silenced
- me. I am stout, and soon put out of breath; and what with that and the
- rage, I staggered dizzily back, and felt ready to suffocate or to burst
- a blood-vessel. The scene was over in two minutes. Catherine, released,
- put her two hands to her temples, and looked just as if she were not
- sure whether her ears were off or on. She trembled like a reed, poor
- thing, and leant against the table perfectly bewildered.
-
- "I know how to chastise children, you see," said the scoundrel
- grimly, as he stooped to repossess himself of the key, which had dropped
- to the floor. "Go to Linton now, as I told you, and cry at your ease. I
- shall be your father to-morrow - all the father you'll have in a few
- days - and you shall have plenty of that. You can bear plenty; you're no
- weakling. You shall have a daily taste, if I catch such a devil of a
- temper in your eyes again!"
-
- Cathy ran to me instead of Linton, and knelt down and put her
- burning cheek on my lap, weeping aloud. Her cousin had shrunk into a
- corner of the settle, as quiet as a mouse, congratulating himself, I
- dare say, that the correction had lighted on another than him. Mr.
- Heathcliff, perceiving us all confounded, rose, and expeditiously made
- the tea himself. The cups and saucers were laid ready. He poured it out,
- and handed me a cup.
-
- "Wash away your spleen," he said. "And help your own naughty pet
- and mine. It is not poisoned, though I prepared it. I'm going out to
- seek your horses."
-
- Our first thought, on his departure, was to force an exit
- somewhere. We tried the kitchen door, but that was fastened outside. We
- looked at the windows; they were too narrow for even Cathy's little
- figure.
-
- "Master Linton," I cried, seeing we were regularly imprisoned, "you
- know what your diabolical father is after, and you shall tell us, or
- I'll box your ears, as he has done your cousin's."
-
- "Yes, Linton, you must tell," said Catherine. "It was for your sake
- I came, and it will be wickedly ungrateful if you refuse."
-
- "Give me some tea - I'm thirsty - and then I'll tell you," he
- answered. - "Mrs. Dean, go away. I don't like you standing over me -
- Now, Catherine, you are letting your tears fall into my cup. I won't
- drink that. Give me another."
-
- Catherine pushed another to him, and wiped her face. I felt
- disgusted at the little wretch's composure, since he was no longer in
- terror for himself. The anguish he had exhibited on the moor subsided as
- soon as ever he entered Wuthering Heights, so I guessed he had been
- menaced with an awful visitation of wrath if he failed in decoying us
- there; and that accomplished, he had no further immediate fears.
-
- "Papa wants us to be married," he continued, after sipping some of
- the liquid. "And he knows your papa wouldn't let us marry now, and he's
- afraid of my dying if we wait; so we are to be married in the morning,
- and you are to stay here all night; and if you do as he wishes, you
- shall return home next day, and take me with you."
-
- "Take you with her, pitiful changeling!" I exclaimed. "You marry!
- Why, the man is mad, or he thinks us fools every one. And do you imagine
- that beautiful young lady, that healthy, hearty girl, will tie herself
- to a little perishing monkey like you? Are you cherishing the notion
- that anybody, let alone Miss Catherine Linton, would have you for a
- husband? You want whipping for bringing us in here at all, with your
- dastardly puling tricks; and - don't look so silly now! I've a very good
- mind to shake you severely for your contemptible treachery and your
- imbecile conceit."
-
- I did give him a slight shaking, but it brought on the cough, and
- he took to his ordinary resource of moaning and weeping, and Catherine
- rebuked me.
-
- "Stay all night? No," she said, looking slowly round. "Ellen, I'll
- burn that door down, but I'll get out."
-
- And she would have commenced the execution of her threat directly,
- but Linton was up in alarm for his dear self again. He clasped her in
- his two feeble arms, sobbing,--
-
- "Won't you have me, and save me? - not let me come to the Grange? O
- darling Catherine, you mustn't go and leave, after all! You must obey my
- father--you must!"
-
- "I must obey my own," she replied, "and relieve him from this cruel
- suspense. The whole night! What would he think? He'll be distressed
- already. I'll either break or burn a way out of the house. Be quiet!
- You're in no danger. But if you hinder me - - Linton, I love papa
- better than you!"
-
- The mortal terror he felt of Mr. Heathcliff's anger restored to the
- boy his coward's eloquence. Catherine was near distraught; still she
- persisted that she must go home, and tried entreaty in her turn,
- persuading him to subdue his selfish agony. While they were thus
- occupied, our gaoler re-entered.
-
- "Your beasts have trotted off," he said, "and - -Now, Linton!
- snivelling again? What has she been doing to you? Come, come; have done,
- and get to bed. In a month or two, my lad, you'll be able to pay her
- back her present tyrannies with a vigorous hand. You're pining for pure
- love, are you not? - nothing else in the world; and she shall have you!
- There, to bed! Zillah won't be here to-night. You must undress yourself.
- Hush! hold your noise! Once in your own room, I'll not come near you.
- You needn't fear. By chance you've managed tolerably. I'll look to the
- rest."
-
- He spoke these words, holding the door open for his son to pass;
- and the latter achieved his exit exactly as a spaniel might which
- suspected the person who attended on it of designing a spiteful squeeze.
- The lock was resecured. Heathcliff approached the fire, where my
- mistress and I stood silent. Catherine looked up, and instinctively
- raised her hand to her cheek. His neighbourhood revived a painful
- sensation. Anybody else would have been incapable of regarding the
- childish act with sternness, but he scowled on her and muttered,--
- "Oh! you are not afraid of me? Your courage is well disguised; you
- seem damnably afraid!"
-
- "I am afraid now," she replied, "because, if I stay, papa will be
- miserable; and how can I endure making him miserable when he - when he -
- - Mr. Heathcliff, let me go home! I promise to marry Linton; papa would
- like me to, and I love him. Why should you wish to force me to do what
- I'll willingly do of myself?"
-
- "Let him dare to force you!" I cried. "There's law in the land -
- thank God there is! - though we be in an out-of-the-way place. I'd
- inform if he were my own son. And it's felony, without benefit of
- clergy."
-
- "Silence!" said the ruffian. "To the devil with your clamour! I
- don't want you to speak. - Miss Linton, I shall enjoy myself remarkably
- in thinking your father will be miserable; I shall not sleep for
- satisfaction. You could have hit on no surer way of fixing your
- residence under my roof for the next twenty-four hours than in forming
- me that such an event would follow. As to your promise to marry Linton,
- I'll take care you shall keep it, for you shall not quit this place till
- it is fulfilled."
-
- "Send Ellen, then, to let papa know I'm safe!" exclaimed Catherine,
- weeping bitterly; "or marry me now. Poor papa! - Ellen, he'll think
- we're lost. What shall we do?"
-
- "Not he! He'll think you are tired of waiting on him, and run off
- for a little amusement," answered Heathcliff. "You cannot deny that you
- entered my house of your own accord, in contempt of his injunctions to
- the contrary. And it is quite natural that you should desire amusement
- at your age, and that you would weary of nursing a sick man, and that
- man only your father. Catherine, his happiest days were over when your
- days began. He cursed you, I dare say, for coming into the world (I did,
- at least), and it would just do if he cursed you as he went out of it.
- I'd join him. I don't love you. How should I? Weep away. As far as I can
- see, it will be your chief diversion hereafter, unless Linton make
- amends for other losses; and your provident parent appears to fancy he
- may. His letters of advice and consolation entertained me vastly. In his
- last he recommended my jewel to be careful of his, and kind to her when
- he got her. Careful and kind - that's paternal. But Linton requires his
- whole stock of care and kindness for himself. Linton can play the little
- tyrant well. He'll undertake to torture any number of cats, if their
- teeth be drawn and their claws pared. You'll be able to tell his uncle
- fine tales of his kindness when you get home again, I assure you."
-
- "You're right there!" I said: "explain your son's character; show
- his resemblance to yourself; and then, I hope, Miss Cathy will think
- twice before she takes the cockatrice!"
-
- "I don't much mind speaking of his amiable qualities now," he
- answered, "because she must either accept him or remain a prisoner, and
- you along with her, till your master dies. I can detain you both, quite
- concealed, here. If you doubt, encourage her to retract her word, and
- you'll have an opportunity of judging."
-
- "I'll not retract my word," said Catherine. "I'll marry him within
- this hour, if I may go to Thrushcross Grange afterwards. Mr. Heathcliff,
- you're a cruel man, but you're not a fiend; and you won't, from mere
- malice, destroy irrevocably all my happiness. If papa thought I had left
- him on purpose, and if he died before I returned, could I bear to live?
- I've given over crying, but I'm going to kneel here at your knee; and
- I'll not get up, and I'll not take my eyes from your face till you look
- back at me! No, don't turn away - do look! You'll see nothing to provoke
- you. I don't hate you. I'm not angry that you struck me. Have you never
- loved anybody in all your life, uncle? never? Ah! you must look once.
- I'm so wretched, you can't help being sorry and pitying me."
-
- "Keep your eft's fingers off, and move, or I'll kick you!" cried
- Heathcliff, brutally repulsing her. "I'd rather be hugged by a snake.
- How the devil can you dream of fawning on me? I detest you!"
-
- He shrugged his shoulders, shook himself, indeed, as if his flesh
- crept with aversion, and thrust back his chair, while I got up and
- opened my mouth to commence a downright torrent of abuse. But I was
- rendered dumb in the middle of the first sentence by a threat that I
- should be shown into a room by myself the very next syllable I uttered.
- It was growing dark. We heard a sound of voices at the garden gate. Our
- host hurried out instantly. He had his wits about him; we had not. There
- was a talk of two or three minutes, and he returned alone.
-
- "I thought it had been your cousin Hareton," I observed to
- Catherine. "I wish he would arrive. Who knows but he might take our
- part?"
-
- "It was three servants sent to seek you from the Grange," said
- Heathcliff, overhearing me. "You should have opened a lattice and called
- out; but I could swear that chit is glad you didn't. She's glad to be
- obliged to stay, I'm certain."
-
- At learning the chance we had missed we both gave vent to our grief
- without control, and he allowed us to wail on till nine o'clock. Then he
- bade us go upstairs, through the kitchen, to Zillah's chamber; and I
- whispered my companion to obey. Perhaps we might con trive to get
- through the window there, or into a garret, and out by its skylight. The
- window, however, was narrow, like those below, and the garret trap was
- safe from our attempts, for we were fastened in as before. We neither of
- us lay down. Catherine took her station by the lattice, and watched
- anxiously for morning, a deep sigh being the only answer I could obtain
- to my frequent entreaties that she would try to rest. I seated myself in
- a chair, and rocked to and fro, passing harsh judgment on my many
- derelictions of duty, from which, it struck me then, all the misfortunes
- of my employers sprang. It was not the case in reality, I am aware, but
- it was in my imagination that dismal night; and I thought Heathcliff
- himself less guilty than I.
-
- At seven o'clock he came and inquired if Miss Linton had risen. She
- ran to the door immediately, and answered, "Yes." "Here, then," he said,
- opening it, and pulling her out. I rose to follow, but he turned the
- lock again. I demanded my release.
-
- "Be patient," he replied. "I'll send up your breakfast in a while."
-
- I thumped on the panels and rattled the latch angrily, and
- Catherine asked why I was still shut up? He answered, I must try to
- endure it another hour; and they went away. I endured it two or three
- hours. At length I heard a footstep - not Heathcliff's.
-
- "I've brought you something to eat," said a voice. "Oppen t' door!"
-
-
- Complying eagerly, I beheld Hareton, laden with food enough to last
- me all day.
-
- "Tak it," he added, thursting the tray into my hand.
-
- "Stay one minute," I began.
-
- "Nay," cried he, and retired, regardless of any prayers I could
- pour forth to detain him.
-
- And there I remained enclosed the whole day, and the whole of the
- next night, and another, and another. Five nights and four days I
- remained altogether, seeing nobody but Hareton, once every morning; and
- he was a model of a gaoler - surly and dumb, and deaf to every attempt
- at moving his sense of justice or compassion.
-
- CHAPTER XXVIII.
-
-
- On the fifth morning, or rather afternoon, a different step approached,
- lighter and shorter, and this time the person entered the room. It was
- Zillah, donned in her scarlet shawl, with a black silk bonnet on her
- head, and a willow basket swung to her arm.
-
- "Eh, dear, Mrs. Dean!" she exclaimed. "Well, there is a talk about
- you at Gimmerton. I never thought but you were sunk in the Blackhorse
- marsh, and missy with you, till master told me you'd been found, and
- he'd lodged you here! What! and you must have got on an island, sure.
- And how long were you in the hole? Did master save you, Mrs. Dean? But
- you're not so thin--you've not been so poorly, have you?"
-
- "Your master is a true scoundrel!" I replied. "But he shall answer
- for it. He needn't have raised that tale. It shall all be laid bare."
-
- "What do you mean?" asked Zillah. "It's not his tale. They tell
- that in the village, about your being lost in the marsh; and I calls to
- Earnshaw, when I come in, 'Eh, they's queer things, Mr. Hareton,
- happened since I went off. It's a sad pity of that likely young lass,
- and cant Nelly Dean.' He stared. I thought he had not heard aught, so I
- told him the rumour. The master listened, and he just smiled to himself
- and said, 'If they have been in the marsh, they are out now, Zillah.
- Nelly Dean is lodged, at this minute, in your room. You can tell her to
- flit when you go up; here is the key. The bog water got into her head,
- and she would have run home quite flighty, but I fixed her till she came
- round to her senses. You can bid her go to the Grange at once, if she be
- able, and carry a message from me that her young lady will follow in
- time to attend the squire's funeral.' "
-
- "Mr. Edgar is not dead?" I gasped. "O Zillah, Zillah!"
-
- "No, no. Sit you down, my good mistress," she replied; "you're
- right sickly yet. He's not dead. Dr. Kenneth thinks he may last another
- day. I met him on the road and asked."
-
- Instead of sitting down, I snatched my outdoor things and hastened
- below, for the way was free. On entering the house I looked about for
- some one to give information of Catherine. The place was filled with
- sunshine, and the door stood wide open, but nobody seemed at hand. As I
- hesitated whether to go off at once or return and seek my mistress, a
- slight cough drew my attention to the hearth. Linton lay on the settle,
- sole tenant, sucking a stick of sugar-candy, and pursuing my movements
- with apathetic eyes. "Where is Miss Catherine?" I demanded sternly,
- supposing I could frighten him into giving intelligence by catching him
- thus alone. He sucked on like an innocent,
-
- "Is she gone?" I said.
-
- "No," he replied; "she's upstairs. She's not to go; we won't let
- her."
-
- "You won't let her, little idiot!" I exclaimed. "Direct me to her
- room immediately, or I'll make you sing out sharply."
-
- "Papa would make you sing out if you attempted to get there," he
- answered. "He says I'm not to be soft with Catherine. She's my wife, and
- it's shameful that she should wish to leave me. He says she hates me and
- wants me to die, that she may have my money. But she shan't have it, and
- she shan't go home - she never shall! She may cry and be sick as much as
- she pleases!"
-
- He resumed his former occupation, closing his lids as if he meant
- to drop asleep.
-
- "Master Heathcliff," I resumed, "have you forgotten all Catherine's
- kindness to you last winter, when you affirmed you loved her, and when
- she brought you books and sang you songs, and came many a time through
- wind and snow to see you? She wept to miss one evening, because you
- would be disappointed; and you felt then that she was a hundred times
- too good to you, and now you believe the lies your father tells, though
- you know he detests you both. And you join him against her. That's fine
- gratitude, is it not?"
-
- The corner of Linton's mouth fell, and he took the sugar-candy from
- his lips.
-
- "Did she come to Wuthering Heights because she hated you?" I
- continued. "Think for yourself! As to your money, she does not even know
- that you will have any. And you say she's sick, and yet you leave her
- alone up there in a strange house--you who have felt what it is to be so
- neglected! You could pity your own sufferings, and she pitied them too,
- but you won't pity hers! I shed tears, Master Heathcliff, you see - an
- elderly woman, and a servant merely; and you, after pretending such
- affection and having reason to worship her almost, store every tear you
- have for yourself, and lie there quite at ease. Ah! you're a heartless,
- selfish boy!"
-
- "I can't stay with her," he answered crossly. "I'll not stay by
- myself. She cries so I can't bear it. And she won't give over, though I
- say I'll call my father. I did call him once, and he threatened to
- strangle her if she was not quiet; but she began again the instant he
- left the room, moaning and grieving all night long, though I screamed
- for vexation that I couldn't sleep."
-
- "Is Mr. Heathcliff out?" I inquired, perceiving that the wretched
- creature had no power to sympathize with his cousin's mental tortures.
-
- "He's in the court," he replied, "talking to Dr. Kenneth, who says
- uncle is dying, truly, at last. I'm glad, for I shall be master of the
- Grange after him. Catherine always spoke of it as her house. It isn't
- hers. It's mine. Papa says everything she has is mine. All her nice
- books are mine. She offered to give me them, and her pretty birds, and
- her pony Minny, if I would get the key of our room and let her out; but
- I told her she had nothing to give - they were all, all mine. And then
- she cried, and took a little picture from her neck, and said I should
- have that - two pictures in a gold case, on one side her mother, and on
- the other uncle, when they were young. That was yesterday. I said they
- were mine too, and tried to get them from her. The spiteful thing
- wouldn't let me; she pushed me off, and hurt me. I shrieked out; that
- frightens her. She heard papa coming, and she broke the hinges and
- divided the case, and gave me her mother's portrait. The other she
- attempted to hide; but papa asked what was the matter, and I explained
- it. He took the one I had away, and ordered her to resign hers to me.
- She refused, and he--he struck her down, and wrenched it off the chain,
- and crushed it with his foot."
-
- "And were you pleased to see her struck?" I asked, having my
- designs in encouraging his talk.
-
- "I winked," he answered. "I wink to see my father strike a dog or a
- horse; he does it so hard. Yet I was glad at first. She deserved
- punishing for pushing me. But when papa was gone she made me come to the
- window, and showed me her cheek cut on the inside, against her teeth,
- and her mouth filling with blood; and then she gathered up the bits of
- the picture, and went and sat down with her face to the wall, and she
- has never spoken to me since, and I sometimes think she can't speak for
- pain. I don't like to think so; but she's a naughty thing for crying
- continually, and she looks so pale and wild, I'm afraid of her."
-
- "And you can get the key if you choose?" I said.
-
- "Yes, when I am upstairs," he answered. "But I can't walk upstairs
- now."
-
- "In what apartment is it?" I asked.
-
- "Oh," he cried, "I shan't tell you where it is! It is our secret.
- Nobody, neither Hareton nor Zillah, is to know. There! you've tired me;
- go away, go away!" And he turned his face on to his arm, and shut his
- eyes again.
-
- I considered it best to depart without seeing Mr. Heathcliff, and
- bring a rescue for my young lady from the Grange. On reaching it, the
- astonishment of my fellow-servants to see me, and their joy also, was
- intense; and when they heard that their little mistress was safe, two or
- three were about to hurry up and shout the news at Mr. Edgar's door; but
- I bespoke the announcement of it myself. How changed I found him even in
- those few days! He lay an image of sadness and resignation waiting his
- death. Very young he looked; though his actual age was thirty-nine, one
- would have called him ten years younger, at least. He thought of
- Catherine, for he murmured her name. I touched his hand and spoke.
-
- "Catherine is coming, dear master," I whispered.
-
- "She is alive and well, and will be here, I hope, tonight."
-
- I trembled at the first effects of this intelligence. He half rose
- up, looked eagerly round the apartment, and then sank back in a swoon.
- As soon as he recovered I related our compulsory visit and detention at
- the Heights. I said Heathcliff forced me to go in, which was not quite
- true. I uttered as little as possible against Linton, nor did I describe
- all his father's brutal conduct, my intentions being to add no
- bitterness, if I could help it, to his already overflowing cup.
-
- He divined that one of his enemy's purposes was to secure the
- personal property, as well as the estate, to his son, or rather himself;
- yet why he did not wait till his decease was a puzzle to my master,
- because ignorant how nearly he and his nephew would quit the world
- together. However, he felt that his will had better be altered. Instead
- of leaving Catherine's fortune at her own disposal, he determined to put
- it in the hands of trustees for her use during life, and for her
- children, if she had any, after her. By that means it could not fall to
- Mr. Heathcliff, should Linton die.
-
- Having received his orders, I dispatched a man to fetch the
- attorney, and four more, provided with serviceable weapons, to demand my
- young lady of her gaoler. Both parties were delayed very late. The
- single servant returned first. He said Mr. Green, the lawyer, was out
- when he arrived at his house, and he had to wait two hours for his
- re-entrance; and then Mr. Green told him he had a little business in
- the village that must be done, but he would be at Thrushcross Grange
- before morning. The four men came back unaccompanied also. They brought
- word that Catherine was ill - too ill to quit her room - and Heathcliff
- would not sufler them to see her. I scolded the stupid fellows well for
- listening to that tale, which I would not carry to my master, resolving
- to take a whole bevy up to the Heights at daylight, and storm it
- literally, unless the prisoner were quietly surrendered to us. Her
- father shall see her, I vowed, and vowed again, if that devil be killed
- on his own door-stones in trying to prevent it!
-
- Happily I was spared the journey and the trouble. I had gone
- downstairs at three o'clock to fetch a jug of water, and was passing
- through the hall with it in my hand, when a sharp knock at the front
- door made me jump. "Oh! it is Green," I said, recollecting myself--"only
- Green"; and I went on, intending to send somebody else to open it; but
- the knock was repeated, not loud, and still importunately. I put the jug
- on the banister and hastened to admit him myself. The harvest moon shone
- clear outside. It was not the attorney. My own sweet little mistress
- sprang on my neck, sobbing,--
- "Ellen! Ellen! is papa alive?"
-
- "Yes!" I cried - "yes, my angel, he is! God be thanked, you are
- safe with us again!"
-
- She wanted to run, breathless as she was, upstairs to Mr. Linton's
- room, but I compelled her to sit down on a chair, and made her drink,
- and washed her pale face, chafing it into a faint colour with my apron.
- Then I said I must go first and tell of her arrival, imploring her to
- say she should be happy with young Heathcliff. She stared, but soon
- comprehending why I counselled her to utter the falsehood, she assured
- me she would not complain.
-
- I couldn't abide to be present at their meeting. I stood outside
- the chamber door a quarter of an hour, and hardly ventured near the bed
- then. All was composed, however. Catherine's despair was as silent as
- her father's joy. She supported him calmly, in appearance, and he fixed
- on her features his raised eyes, that seemed dilating with ecstasy.
-
- He died blissfully, Mr. Lockwood; he died so. Kissing her cheek, he
- murmured,--
- "I am going to her; and you, darling child, shall come to us," and
- never stirred or spoke again, but continued that rapt, radiant gaze till
- his pulse imperceptibly stopped and his soul departed. None could have
- noticed the exact minute of his death, it was so entirely without a
- struggle.
-
- Whether Catherine had spent her tears, or whether the grief were
- too weighty to let them flow, she sat there dry-eyed till the sun rose;
- she sat till noon, and would still have remained brooding over that
- deathbed, but I insisted on her coming away and taking some repose. It
- was well I succeeded in removing her, for at dinner time appeared the
- lawyer, having called at Wuthering Heights to get his instructions how
- to behave. He had sold himself to Mr. Heathcliff; that was the cause of
- his delay in obeying my master's summons. Fortunately, no thought of
- worldly affairs crossed the latter's mind, to disturb him, after his
- daughter's arrival.
-
- Mr. Green took upon himself to order everything and everybody about
- the place. He gave all the servants but me notice to quit. He would have
- carried his delegated authority to the point of insisting that Edgar
- Linton should not be buried beside his wife, but in the chapel with his
- family. There was the will, however, to hinder that, and my loud
- protestations against any infringement of its directions. The funeral
- was hurried over. Catherine, Mrs. Linton Heathcliff now, was suffered to
- stay at the Grange till her father's corpse had quitted it.
-
- She told me that her anguish had at last spurred Linton to incur
- the risk of liberating her. She heard the men I sent disputing at the
- door, and she gathered the sense of Heathcliff's answer. It drove her
- desperate. Linton, who had been conveyed up to the little parlour soon
- after I left, was terrified into fetching the key before his father
- reascended. He had the cunning to unlock and relock the door, without
- shutting it; and when he should have gone to bed, he begged to sleep
- with Hareton, and his petition was granted for once. Catherine stole out
- before break of day. She dare not try the doors, lest the dogs should
- raise an alarm. She visited the empty chambers and examined their
- windows, and luckily lighting on her mother's, she got easily out of
- its lattice, and on to the ground by means of the fir-tree close by. Her
- accomplice suffered for his share in the escape, notwithstanding his
- timid contrivances.
-
- CHAPTER XXIX.
-
-
- The evening after the funeral, my young lady and I were seated in the
- library, now musing mournfully, one of us despairingly, on our loss, now
- venturing conjectures as to the gloomy future.
-
- We had just agreed the best destiny which could await Catherine
- would be a permission to continue resident at the Grange - at least
- during Linton's life - he being allowed to join her there, and I to
- remain as housekeeper. That seemed rather too favourable an arrangement
- to be hoped for, and yet I did hope, and began to cheer up under the
- prospect of retaining my home and my employment, and, above all, my
- beloved young mistress, when a servant - one of the discarded ones, not
- yet departed - rushed hastily in, and said
-
- "that devil Heathcliff" was coming through the court; should he
- fasten the door in his face?
-
- If we had been mad enough to order that proceeding, we had not
- time. He made no ceremony of knocking or announcing his name. He was
- master, and availed himself of the master's privilege to walk straight
- in without saying a word. The sound of our informant's voice directed
- him to the library. He entered, and motioning him out, shut the door.
-
- It was the same room into which he had been ushered, as a guest,
- eighteen years before. The same moon shone through the window, and the
- same autumn landscape lay outside. We had not yet lighted a candle,
- but all the apartment was visible, even to the portraits on the wall -
- the splendid head of Mrs. Linton, and the graceful one of her husband.
- Heathcliff advanced to the hearth. Time had little altered his person
- either. There was the same man, his dark face rather sallower and more
- composed, his frame a stone or two heavier, perhaps, and no other
- difference. Catherine had risen, with an impulse to dash out, when she
- saw him.
-
- "Stop!" he said, arresting her by the arm. "No more runnings away!
- Where would you go? I'm come to fetch you home, and I hope you will be a
- dutiful daughter, and not encourage my son to further disobedience. I
- was embarrassed how to punish him when I discovered his part in the
- business - be's such a cobweb, a pinch would annihilate him - but you'll
- see by his look that he has received his due. I brought him down one
- evening, the day before yesterday, and just set him in a chair, and
- never touched him afterwards. I sent Hareton out, and we had the room to
- ourselves. In two hours I called Joseph to carry him up again; and since
- then my presence is as potent on his nerves as a ghost, and I fancy he
- sees me often, though I am not near. Hareton says he wakes and shrieks
- in the night by the hour together, and calls you to protect him from me;
- and whether you like your precious mate or not, you must come. He's your
- concern now; I yield all my interest in him to you."
-
- "Why not let Catherine continue here," I pleaded, "and send Master
- Linton to her? As you hate them both, you'd not miss them. They can only
- be a daily plague to your unnatural heart."
-
- "I'm seeking a tenant for the Grange," he answered,
-
- "and I want my children about me, to be sure. Besides, that lass
- owes me her services for her bread. I'm not going to nurture her in
- luxury and idleness after Linton has gone. Make haste and get ready now,
- and don't oblige me to compel you."
-
- "I shall," said Catherine. "Linton is all I have to love in the
- world, and though you have done what you could to make him hateful to
- me, and me to him, you cannot make us hate each other. And I defy you to
- hurt him when I am by, and I defy you to frighten me."
-
- "You are a boastful champion," replied Heathcliff,
-
- "but I don't like you well enough to hurt him; you shall get the
- full benefit of the torment as long as it lasts. It is not I who will
- make him hateful to you; it is his own sweet spirit. He's as bitter as
- gall at your desertion and its consequences. Don't expect thanks for
- this noble devotion. I heard him draw a pleasant picture to Zillah of
- what he would do if he were as strong as I. The inclination is there,
- and his very weakness will sharpen his wits to find a substitute for
- strength."
-
- "I know he has a bad nature," said Catherine; "he's your son. But
- I'm glad I've a better, to forgive it; and I know he loves me, and for
- that reason I love him. Mr. Heathcliff, you have nobody to love you; and
- however miserable you make us, we shall still have the revenge of
- thinking that your cruelty arises from your greater misery. You are
- miserable, are you not?--lonely, like the devil, and envious like him?
- Nobody loves you - nobody will cry for you when you die. I wouldn't be
- you."
-
- Catherine spoke with a kind of dreary triumph. She seemed to have
- made up her mind to enter into the spirit of her future family, and draw
- pleasure from the griefs of her enemies.
-
- "You shall be sorry to be yourself presently," said her
- father-in-law, "if you stand there another minute. Begone, witch, and
- get your thingsl"
-
- She scornfully withdrew. In her absence I began to beg for Zillah's
- place at the Heights, offering to resign mine to her; but he would
- suffer it on no account. He bade me be silent; and then, for the first
- time, allowed himself a glance round the room and a look at the
- pictures. Having studied Mrs. Linton's, he said,--
- "I shall have that home - not because I need it, but - - " He
- turned abruptly to the fire, and continued, with what, for lack of a
- better word, I must call a smile - "I'll tell you what I did yesterday.
- I got the sexton, who was digging Linton's grave, to remove the earth
- off her coffin-lid, and I opened it. I thought, once, I would have
- stayed there. When I saw her face again
- - it is hers yet - he had hard work to stir me; but he said it would
- change if the air blew on it, and so I struck one side of the coffin
- loose, and covered it up--not Linton's side, damn him! I wish he'd been
- soldered in lead. And I bribed the sexton to pull it away when I'm laid
- there, and slide mine out too. I'll have it made so. And then, by the
- time Linton gets to us he'll not know which is which."
-
- "You are very wicked Mr. Heathcliff!" I exclaimed. "Were you not
- ashamed to disturb the dead?"
-
- "I disturbed nobody, Nelly," he replied, "and I gave some ease to
- myself. I shall be a great deal more comfortable now, and you'll have a
- better chance of keeping me underground when I get there. Disturbed her!
- No! She has disturbed me, night and day, through eighteen years,
- incessantly, remorselessly, till yesternight; and yesternight I was
- tranquil. I dreamt I was sleeping the last sleep by that sleeper, with
- my heart stopped and my cheek frozen against hers."
-
- "And if she had been dissolved into earth, or worse, what would you
- have dreamt of then?" I said.
-
- "Of dissolving with her, and being more happy still," he answered.
- "Do you suppose I dread any change of that sort? I expected such a
- transformation on raising the lid, but I'm better pleased that it should
- not commence till I share it. Besides, unless I had received a
-
- distinct impression of her passionless features, that strange feeling
- would hardly have been removed. It began oddly. You know I was wild
- after she died, and eternally, from dawn to dawn, praying her to return
- to me her spirit. I have a strong faith in ghosts; I have a conviction
- that they can and do exist among us. The day she was buried there came a
- fall of snow. In the evening I went to the churchyard. It blew bleak as
- winter; all round was solitary. I didn't fear that her fool of a husband
- would wander up the den so late, and no one else had business to bring
- them there. Being alone, and conscious two yards of loose earth was the
- sole barrier between us, I said to myself, 'I'll have her in my arms
- again! If she be cold, I'll think it is this north wind that chills me,
- and if she be motionless, it is sleep.' I got a spade from the
- toolhouse, and began to delve with all my might. It scraped the coffin.
- I fell to work with my hands. The wood commenced cracking about the
- screws. I was on the point of attaining my object, when it seemed that I
- heard a sigh from some one above, close at the edge of the grave, and
- bending down. 'If I can only get this off,' I muttered, 'I wish they may
- shovel in the earth over us both!' and I wrenched at it more desperately
- still. There was another sigh close at my ear. I appeared to feel the
- warm breath of it displacing the sleet-laden wind. I knew no living
- thing in flesh and blood was by; but as certainly as you perceive the
- approach to some substantial body in the dark, though it cannot be
- discerned, so certainly I felt that Cathy was there - not under me, but
- on the earth. A sudden sense of relief flowed from my heart through
- every limb. I relinquished my labour of agony, and turned consoled at
- once, unspeakably consoled. Her presence was with me; it remained while
- I refilled the grave, and led me home. You may laugh if you will, but I
- was sure I should see her there. I was sure she was with me, and I could
- not help talking to her. Having reached the Heights, I rushed eagerly to
- the door. It was fastened, and, I remember, that accursed Earnshaw and
- my wife opposed my entrance. I remember stopping to kick the breath out
- of him, and then hurrying upstairs to my room and hers. I looked round
- impatiently; I felt her by me; I could almost see her, and yet I could
- not! I ought to have sweat blood then, from the anguish of my yearning,
- from the fervour of my supplications to have but one glimpse. I had not
- one. She showed herself, as she often was in life, a devil to me! And
- since then, sometimes more and sometimes less, I've been the sport of
- that intolerable torture--infernal! keeping my nerves at such a stretch
- that, if they had not resembled catgut, they would long ago have relaxed
- to the feebleness of Linton's. When I sat in the house with Hareton it
- seemed that on going out I should meet her; when I walked on the moors I
- should meet her coming in; when I went from home I hastened to return.
- She must be somewhere at the Heights, I was certain. And when I slept in
- her chamber, I was beaten out of that. I couldn't lie there, for the
- moment I closed my eyes she was either outside the window, or sliding
- back the panels, or entering the room, or even resting her darling head
- on the same pillow as she did when a child, and I must open my lids to
- see. And so I opened and closed them a hundred times a night, to be
- always disappointed. It racked me. I've often groaned aloud, till that
- old rascal Joseph no doubt believed that my conscience was playing the
- fiend inside of me. Now, since I've seen her, I'm pacified - a little.
- It was a strange way of killing - not by inches, but by fractions of
- hairbreadths - to beguile me with the spectre of a hope through eighteen
- years!"
-
- Mr. Heathcliff paused and wiped his forehead. His hair clung to it,
- wet with perspiration; his eyes were fixed on the red embers of the
- fire, the brows not contracted, but raised next the temples, diminishing
- the grim aspect of his countenance, but imparting a peculiar look of
- trouble and a painful appearance of mental tensioo towards one absorbing
- subject. He only half addressed me, and I maintained silence. I didn't
- like to hear him talk. After a short period he resumed his meditation on
- the picture, took it down and leant it against the sofa to contemplate
- it at better advantage; and while so occupied Catherine entered,
- announcing that she was ready, when her pony should be saddled.
-
- "Send that over to-morrow," said Heathcliff to me; then turning to
- her, he added, "You may do without your pony. It is a fine evening, and
- you'll need no ponies at Wuthering Heights, for what journeys you take
- your own feet will serve you. Come along."
-
- "Good-bye, Ellen!" whispered my dear little mistress. As she kissed
- me, her lips felt like ice. "Come and see me, Ellen; don't forget."
-
- "Take care you do no such thing, Mrs. Dean!" said her new father.
- "When I wish to speak to you I'll come here. I want none of your prying
- at my house."
-
- He signed her to precede him, and casting back a look that cut my
- heart, she obeyed. I watched them from the window walk down the garden.
- Heathcliff fixed Catherine's arm under his, though she disputed the act
- at first evidently, and with rapid strides he hurried her into the
- alley, whose trees concealed them.
-
- CHAPTER XXX.
-
-
- I have paid a visit to the Heights, but I have not seen her since she
- left. Joseph held the door in his hand when I called to ask after her,
- and wouldn't let me pass. He said Mrs. Linton was "thrang," and the
- master was not in. Zillah has told me something of the way they go on,
- otherwise I should hardly know who was dead and who living. She thinks
- Catherine haughty, and does not like her, I can guess by her talk. My
- young lady asked some aid of her when she first came, but Mr. Heathcliff
- told her to follow her own business, and let his daughter-in-law look
- after herself; and Zillah willingly acquiesced, being a narrow-minded,
- selfish woman. Catherine evinced a child's annoyance at this neglect,
- repaid it with contempt, and thus enlisted my informant among her
- enemies as securely as if she had done her some great wrong. I had a
- long talk with Zillah about six weeks ago, a little before you came, one
- day when we forgathered on the moor; and this is what she told me.
-
- "The first thing Mrs. Linton did," she said, "on her arrival at the
- Heights, was to run upstairs, without even wishing good-evening to me
- and Joseph; she shut herself into Linton's room, and remained till
- morning. Then, while the master and Earnshaw were at breakfast, she
- entered the house and asked all in a quiver if the doctor might be sent
- for; her cousin was very ill.
-
- " 'We know that,' answered Heathcliff; 'but his life is not worth a
- farthing, and I won't spend a farthing on him.'
-
- " 'But I cannot tell how to do,' she said; 'and if nobody will help
- me, he'll die.'
-
- " 'Walk out of the room,' cried the master, 'and let me never hear
- a word more about him. None here care what becomes of him. If you do,
- act the nurse; if you do not, lock him up and leave him.'
-
- "Then she began to bother me, and I said I'd had enough plague with
- the tiresome thing. We each had our tasks, and hers was to wait on
- Linton; Mr. Heathcliff bade me leave that labour to her.
-
- "How they managed together I can't tell. I fancy he fretted a great
- deal, and moaned hisseln night and day; and she had precious little
- rest, one could guess by her white face and heavy eyes. She sometimes
- came into the kitchen all wildered like, and looked as if she would fain
- beg assistance. But I was not going to disobey the master - I never dare
- disobey him, Mrs. Dean; and though I thought it wrong that Kenneth
- should not be sent for, it was no concern of mine either to advise or
- complain, and I always refused to meddle. Once or twice, after we had
- gone to bed, I've happened to open my door again and seen her sitting
- crying on the stairs' top; and then I've shut myself in quick, for fear
- of being moved to interfere. I did pity her then, I'm sure; still I
- didn't wish to lose my place, you know.
-
- "At last, one night she came boldly into my chamber, and frightened
- me out of my wits by saying,--
- " 'Tell Mr. Heathcliff that his son is dying. I'm sure he is, this
- time. Get up instantly, and tell him.'
-
- "Having uttered this speech, she vanished again. I lay a quarter of
- an hour listening and trembling. Nothing stirred - the house was quiet.
-
- "She's mistaken, I said to myself. He's got over it. I needn't
- disturb them. And I began to doze. But my sleep was marred a second time
- by a sharp ringing of the bell - the only bell we have, put up on
- purpose for Linton; and the master called to me to see what was the
- matter, and inform them that he wouldn't have that noise repeated.
-
- "I delivered Catherine's message. He cursed to himself, and in a
- few minutes came out with a lighted candle, and proceeded to their room.
- I followed. Mrs. Heathcliff was seated by the bedside with her hands
- folded on her knees. Her father-in-law went up, held the light to
- Linton's face, looked at him, and touched him. Afterwards he turned to
- her.
-
- " 'Now, Catherine,' he said, 'how do you feel?'
-
- "She was dumb.
-
- " 'How do you feel, Catherine?' he repeated.
-
- " 'He's safe, and I'm free,' she answered. 'I should feel well,
- but,' she continued, with a bitterness she couldn't conceal, 'you have
- left me so long to struggle against death alone that I feel and see only
- death. I feel like death.'
-
- "And she looked like it too. I gave her a little wine. Hareton and
- Joseph, who had been wakened by the ringing and the sound of feet, and
- heard our talk from outside, now entered. Joseph was fain, I believe, of
- the lad's removal; Hareton seemed a thought bothered, though he was more
- taken up with staring at Catherine than thinking of Linton. But the
- master bade him get off to bed again; we didn't want his help. He
- afterwards made Joseph remove the body to his chamber, and told me to
- return to mine, and Mrs. Heathcliff remained by herself.
-
- "In the morning he sent me to tell her she must come down to
- breakfast. She had undressed, and appeared going to sleep, and said she
- was ill, at which I hardly wondered. I informed Mr. Heathcliff, and he
- replied,--
- " 'Well, let her be till after the funeral, and go up now and then
- to get her what is needful; and as soon as she seems better, tell me.' "
-
- Cathy stayed upstairs a fortnight, according to Zillah, who visited
- her twice a day, and would have been rather more friendly, but her
- attempts at increasing kindness were proudly and promptly repelled.
-
- Heathcliff went up once to show her Linton's will. He had
- bequeathed the whole of his and what had been her movable property to
- his father. The poor creature was threatened or coaxed into that act
- during her week's absence when his uncle died. The lands, being a minor,
- he could not meddle with. However, Mr. Heathcliff has claimed and kept
- them in his wife's right and his also--I suppose legally. At any rate,
- Catherine, destitute of cash and friends, cannot disturb his possession.
-
- "Nobody," said Zillah, "ever approached her door, except that once,
- but I; and nobody asked anything about her. The first occasion of her
- coming down into the house was on a Sunday afternoon. She had cried out,
- when I carried up her dinner, that she couldn't bear any longer being in
- the cold; and I told her the master was going to Thrushcross Grange, and
- Earnshaw and I needn't hinder her from descending; so, as soon as she
- heard Heathcliff's horse trot off, she made her appearance, donned in
- black, and her yellow curls combed back behind her ears as plain as a
- Quaker. She couldn't comb them out.
-
- "Joseph and I generally go to chapel on Sundays." The kirk, you
- know, has no minister now, explained Mrs. Dean, and they call the
- Methodists' or Baptists' place (I can't say which it is) at Gimmerton a
- chapel.
-
- "Joseph has gone," she continued, "but I thought proper to bide at
- home. Young folks are always the better for an elder's overlooking; and
- Hareton, with all his bashfulness, isn't a model of nice behaviour. I
- let him know that his cousin would very likely sit with us, and she had
- been always used to see the Sabbath respected, so he had as good leave
- his guns and bits of indoor work alone while she stayed. He coloured up
- at the news, and cast his eyes over his hands and clothes. The train-oil
- and gunpowder were shoved out of sight in a minute. I saw he meant to
- give her his company, and I guessed by his way he wanted to be
- presentable; so, laughing as I durst not laugh when the master is by, I
- offered to help him, if he would, and joked at his confusion. He grew
- sullen, and began to swear.
-
- "Now, Mrs. Dean," Zillah went on, seeing me not pleased by her
- manner, "you happen think your young lady too fine for Mr. Hareton, and
- happen you're right, but I own I should love well to bring her pride a
- peg lower. And what will all her learning and her daintiness do for her
- now? She's as poor as you or I - poorer, I'll be bound. You're saving,
- and I'm doing my little all that road."
-
- Hareton allowed Zillah to give him her aid, and she flattered him
- into a good humour. So, when Catherine came, half forgetting her former
- insults, he tried to make himself agreeable, by the housekeeper's
- account.
-
- "Missis walked in," she said, "as chill as an icicle, and as high
- as a princess. I got up and offered her my seat in the armchair. No, she
- turned up her nose at my civility. Earnshaw rose too and bade her come
- to the settle, and sit close by the fire; he was sure she was starved.
-
- " 'I've been starved a month and more,' she answered, resting on
- the word as scornful as she could.
-
- "And she got a chair for herself, and placed it at a distance from
- both of us. Having sat till she was warm, she began to look round, and
- discovered a number of books in the dresser. She was instantly upon her
- feet again, stretching to reach them; but they were too high up. Her
- cousin, after watching her endeavours a while, at last summoned courage
- to help her. She held her frock, and he filled it with the first that
- came to hand.
-
- "That was a great advance for the lad. She didn't thank him, still
- he felt gratifled that she had accepted his assistance, and ventured to
- stand behind as she examined them, and even to stoop and point out what
- struck his fancy in certain old pictures which they contained. Nor was
- he daunted by the saucy style in which she jerked the page from his
- finger. He contented himself with going a bit farther back, and looking
- at her instead of the book. She continued reading, or seeking for
- something to read. His attention became, by degrees, quite centreed in
- the study of her thick, silky curls. Her face he couldn't see, and she
- couldn't see him. And, perhaps not quite awake to what he did, but
- attracted like a child to a candle, at last he proceeded from staring to
- touching. He put out his hand and stroked one curl, as gently as if it
- were a bird. He might have stuck a knife into her neck, she started
- round in such a taking.
-
- " 'Get away this moment! How dare you touch me! Why are you
- stopping there?' she cried in a tone of disgust. 'I can't endure you!
- I'll go upstairs again if you come near me.'
-
- "Mr. Hareton recoiled, looking as foolish as he could do. He sat
- down in the settle very quiet, and she continued turning over her
- volumes another half-hour. Finally Earnshaw crossed over and whispered
- to me,--
- " 'Will you ask her to read to us, Zillah? I'm stalled of doing
- naught; and I do like - I could like to hear her. Dunnot say I wanted
- it, but ask of yourseln.'
-
- " 'Mr. Hareton wishes you would read to us, ma'am,' I said
- immediately. 'He'd take it very kind - he'd be much obliged.'
-
- "She frowned, and looking up, answered,--
- " 'Mr. Hareton and the whole set of you will be good enough to
- understand that I reject any pretence at kindness you have the hypocrisy
- to offer! I despise you, and will have nothing to say to any of you!
- When I would have given my life for one kind word, even to see one of
- your faces, you all kept off. But I won't complain to you. I'm driven
- down here by the cold, not either to amuse you or enjoy your society.'
-
- " 'What could I ha' done?' began Earnshaw. 'How was I to blame?'
-
- " 'Oh, you are an exception,' answered Mrs. Heathcliff. 'I never
- missed such a concern as you.'
-
- " 'But I offered more than once, and asked,' he said, kindling up
- at her pertness - 'I asked Mr. Heathcliff to let me wake for you - - '
-
- " 'Be silent! I'll go out of doors, or anywhere, rather than have
- your disagreeable voice in my ear,' said my lady.
-
- "Hareton muttered she might go to hell, for him, and unslinging his
- gun, restrained himself from his Sunday occupations no longer. He talked
- now freely enough, and she presently saw fit to retreat to her solitude;
- but the frost had set in, and, in spite of her pride, she was forced to
- condescend to our company more and more. However, I took care there
- should be no further scorning at my good nature. Ever since I've been as
- stiff as herself, and she has no lover or liker among us; and she does
- not deserve one, for, let them say the least word to her, and she'll
- curl back without respect of any one. She'll snap at the master himself,
- and as good as dares him to thrash her; and the more hurt she gets, the
- more venomous she grows."
-
- At first, on hearing this account from Zillah, I determined to
- leave my situation, take a cottage, and get Catherine to come and live
- with me; but Mr. Heath cliff would as soon permit that as he would set
- up Hareton in an independent house, and I can see no remedy at present,
- unless she could marry again, and that scheme it does not come within my
- province to arrange.
-
- * * * * *
-
- Thus ended Mrs. Dean's story. Notwithstanding the doctor's
- prophecy, I am rapidly recovering strength; and though it be only the
- second week in January, I propose getting out on horseback in a day or
- two, and riding over to Wuthering Heights to inform my landlord that I
- shall spend the next six months in London; and, if he likes, he may look
- out for another tenant to take the place after October. I would not pass
- another winter here for much.
-
- CHAPTER XXXI.
-
-
- Yesterday was bright, calm, and frosty. I went to the Heights as I
- proposed. My housekeeper entreated me to bear a little note from her to
- her young lady, and I did not refuse, for the worthy woman was not
- conscious of anything odd in her request. The front door stood open, but
- the jealous gate was fastened, as at my last visit. I knocked, and
- invoked Earnshaw from among the garden beds. He unchained it, and I
- entered. The fellow is as handsome a rustic as need be seen. I took
- particular notice of him this time; but then he does his best,
- apparently, to make the least of his advantages.
-
- I asked if Mr. Heathcliff were at home. He answered, No, but he
- would be in at dinner-time. It was eleven o'clock, and I announced my
- intention of going in and waiting for him, at which he immediately flung
- down his tools and accompanied me, in the office of watchdog, not as a
- substitute for the host.
-
- We entered together. Catherine was there, making herself useful in
- preparing some vegetables for the approaching meal. She looked more
- sulky and less spirited than when I had seen her first. She hardly
- raised her eyes to notice me, and continued her employment with the same
- disregard to common forms of politeness as before, never returning my
- bow and good-morning by the slightest acknowledgment.
-
- "She does not seem so amiable," I thought, "as Mrs. Dean would
- persuade me to believe. She's a beauty, it is true, but not an angel."
-
- Earnshaw surlily bade her remove her things to the kitchen. "Remove
- them yourself," she said, pushing them from her as soon as she had done,
- and retiring to a stool by the window, where she began to carve figures
- of birds and beasts out of the turnip parings in her lap. I approached
- her, pretending to desire a view of the garden, and, as I fancied,
- adroitly dropped Mrs. Dean's note on to her knee, unnoticed by Hareton;
- but she asked aloud, "What is that?" and chucked it off.
-
- "A letter from your old acquaintance, the housekeeper at the
- Grange," I answered, annoyed at her exposing my kind deed, and fearful
- lest it should be imagined a missive of my own. She would gladly have
- gathered it up at this information, but Hareton beat her. He seized and
- put it in his waistcoat, saying Mr. Heathcliff should look at it first.
- Thereat Catherine silently turned her face from us, and very stealthily
- drew out her pocket-handkerchief and applied it to her eyes; and her
- cousin, after struggling a while to keep down his softer feelings,
- pulled out the letter and flung it on the floor beside her, as
- ungraciously as he could. Catherine caught and perused it eagerly; then
- she put a few questions to me concerning the inmates, rational and
- irrational, of her former home, and gazing towards the hills, murmured
- in soliloquy, -
-
- "I should like to be riding Minny down there! I should like to be
- climbing up there! Oh! I'm tired--I'm stalled,Hareton!" And she leant
- her pretty head back against the sill, with half a yawn and half a sigh,
- and lapsed into an aspect of abstracted sadness, neither caring nor
- knowing whether we remarked her.
-
- "Mrs. Heathcliff," I said, after sitting some time mute, "you are
- not aware that I am an acquaintance of yours - so intimate that I think
- it strange you won't come and speak to me. My housekeeper never wearies
- of talking about and praising you, and she'll be greatly disappointed if
- I return with no news of or from you, except that you received her
- letter and said nothing."
-
- She appeared to wonder at this speech, and asked,--
- "Does Ellen like you?"
-
- "Yes, very well," I replied hesitatingly.
-
- "You must tell her," she continued, "that I would answer her
- letter, but I have no materials for writing--not even a book from which
- I might tear a leaf."
-
- "No books!" I exclaimed. "How do you contrive to live here without
- them? if I may take the liberty to inquire. Though provided with a large
- library, I'm frequently very dull at the Grange. Take my books away, and
- I should be desperate."
-
- "I was always reading when I had them," said Catherine; "and Mr.
- Heathcliff never reads, so he took it into his head to destroy my books.
- I have not had a glimpse of one for weeks. Only once I searched through
- Joseph's store of theology, to his great irritation. - And once,
- Hareton, I came upon a secret stock in your room - some Latin and Greek,
- and some tales and poetry, all old friends. I brought the last here, and
- you gathered them, as a magpie gathers silver spoons, for the mere love
- of stealing - they are of no use to you; or else you concealed them in
- the bad spirit that as you cannot enjoy them nobody else shall. Perhaps
- your envy counselled Mr. Heathcliff to rob me of my treasures? But I've
- most of them written on my brain and printed in my heart, and you cannot
- deprive me of those."
-
- Earnshaw blushed crimson when his cousin made this revelation of
- his private literary accumulations, and stammered an indignant denial of
- her accusations.
-
- "Mr. Hareton is desirous of increasing his amount of knowledge," I
- said, coming to his rescue. "He is not envious but emulous of your
- attainments. He'll be a clever scholar in a few years."
-
- "And he wants me to sink into a dunce meantime," answered
- Catherine. "Yes, I hear him trying to spell and read to himself, and
- pretty blunders he makes. - -L - I wish you would repeat 'Chevy Chase'
- as you did yesterday; it was extremely funny. I heard you, and I heard
- you turning over the dictionary to seek out the hard words, and then
- cursing because you couldn't read their explanations."
-
- The young man evidently thought it too bad that he should be
- laughed at for his ignorance, and then laughed at for trying to remove
- it. I had a similar notion; and remembering Mrs. Dean's anecdote of his
- first attempt at enlightening the darkness in which he had been reared,
- I observed,--
- "But, Mrs. Heathcliff, we have each had a commencement, and each
- stumbled and tottered on the threshold. Had our teachers scorned instead
- of aiding us, we should stumble and totter yet."
-
- "Oh!" she replied, "I don't wish to limit his acquirements. Still,
- he has no right to appropriate what is mine, and make it ridiculous to
- me with his vile mistakes and mispronunciations. Those books, both prose
- and verse, are consecrated to me by other associations, and I hate to
- have them debased and profaned in his mouth. Besides, of all, he has
- selected my favourite pieces that I love the most to repeat, as if out
- of deliberate malice." Hareton's chest heaved in silence a minute. He
- laboured under a severe sense of mortification and wrath, which it was
- no easy task to suppress. I rose, and, from a gentlemanly idea of
- relieving his embarrassment, took up my station in the doorway,
- surveying the external prospect as I stood. He followed my example, and
- left the room, but presently reappeared, bearing half a dozen volumes in
- his hands, which he threw into Catherine's lap, exclaiming,--
-
- "Take them! I never want to hear, or read, or think of them again!"
-
- "I won't have them now," she answered. "I shall connect them with
- you, and hate them."
-
- She opened one that had obviously been often turned over, and read
- a portion in the drawling tone of a beginner, then laughed and threw it
- from her. "And listen," she continued provokingly, commencing a verse of
- an old ballad in the same fashion.
-
- But his self-love would endure no further torment. I heard, and not
- altogether disapprovingly, a manual check given to her saucy tongue. The
- little wretch had done her utmost to hurt her cousin's sensitive though
- uncultivated feelings, and a physical argument was the only mode he had
- of balancing the account and repaying its effects on the inflictor. He
- afterwards gathered the books and hurled them on the fire. I read in his
- countenance what anguish it was to offer that sacrifice to spleen. I
- fancied that as they consumed he recalled the pleasure they had already
- imparted and the triumph and ever-increasing pleasure he had anticipated
- from them, and I fancied I guessed the incitement to his secret studies
- also. He had been content with daily labour and rough animal enjoyments
- till Catherine crossed his path. Shame at her scorn, and hope of her
- approval, were his first prompters to higher pursuits; and, instead of
- guarding him from one and winning him to the other, his endeavours to
- raise himself had produced just the contrary result.
-
- "Yes, that's all the good that such a brute as you can get from
- them!" cried Catherine, sucking her damaged lip, and watching the
- conflagration with indignant eyes.
-
- "You'd better hold your tongue now," he answered fiercely.
-
- And his agitation precluded further speech. He advanced hastily to
- the entrance, where I made way for him to pass. But ere he had crossed
- the door-stones, Mr. Heathcliff, coming up the causeway, encountered
- him, and laying hold of his shoulder, asked,--
- "What's to do now, my lad?"
-
- "Naught, naught," he said, and broke away to enjoy his grief and
- anger in solitude.
-
- Heathcliff gazed after him and sighed.
-
- "It will be odd if I thwart myself," he muttered, unconscious that
- I was behind him. "But when I look for his father in his face, I find
- her every day more. How the devil is he so like? I can hardly bear to
- see him."
-
- He bent his eyes to the ground, and walked moodily in. There was a
- restless, anxious expression in his countenance I had never remarked
- there before, and he looked sparer in person. His daughter-in-law, on
- perceiving him through the window, immediately escaped to the kitchen,
- so that I remained alone.
-
- "I'm glad to see you out of doors again, Mr. Lockwood," he said, in
- reply to my greeting, "from selfish motives partly. I don't think I
- could readily supply your loss in this desolation. I've wondered more
- than once what brought you here."
-
- "An idle whim, I fear, sir," was my answer, "or else an idle whim
- is going to spirit me away. I shall set out for London next week, and I
- must give you warning that I feel no disposition to retain Thrushcross
- Grange beyond the twelve months I agreed to rent it. I believe I shall
- not live there any more."
-
- "Oh, indeed; you're tired of being banished from the world, are
- you?" he said. "But if you be coming to plead off paying for a place you
- won't occupy, your journey is useless. I never relent in exacting my due
- from any one."
-
- "I'm coming to plead off nothing about it," I exclaimed,
- considerably irritated. "Should you wish it, I'll settle with you now."
- And I drew my notebook from my pocket.
-
- "No, no," he replied coolly; "you'll leave sufficient behind to
- cover your debts if you fail to return. I'm not in such a hurry. Sit
- down and take your dinner with us. A guest that is safe from repeating
- his visit can generally be made welcome. - Catherine, bring the things
- in. Where are you?"
-
- Catherine reappeared, bearing a tray of knives and forks.
-
- "You may get your dinner with Joseph," muttered Heathcliff aside,
- "and remain in the kitchen till he is gone."
-
- She obeyed his directions very punctually; perhaps she had no
- temptation to transgress. Living among clowns and misanthropists, she
- probably cannot appreciate a better class of people when she meets them.
-
- With Mr. Heathcliff, grim and saturnine, on the one hand, and
- Hareton, absolutely dumb, on the other, I made a somewhat cheerless
- meal, and bade adieu early. I would have departed by the back way, to
- get a last glimpse of Catherine and annoy old Joseph; but Hareton
- received orders to lead up my horse, and my host himself escorted me to
- the door, so I could not fulfil my wish.
-
- "How dreary life gets over in that house!" I reflected, while
- riding down the road. "What a realization of something more romantic
- than a fairy tale it would have been for Mrs. Linton Heathcliff had she
- and I struck up an attachment, as her good nurse desired, and migrated
- together into the stirring atmosphere of the town!"
-
- CHAPTER XXXII.
-
-
- l802. - This September I was invited to devastate the moors of a friend
- in the north, and on my journey to his abode I unexpectedly came within
- fifteen miles of Gimmerton. The ostler at a roadside public-house was
- holding a pail of water to refresh my horses, when a cart of very green
- oats, newly reaped, passed by, and he remarked,--
- "Yon's frough Gimmerton, nah! They're allas three wick after other
- folk wi' ther harvest."
-
- "Gimmerton!" I repeated. My residence in that locality had already
- grown dim and dreamy. "Ah! I know. How far is it from this?"
-
- "Happen fourteen mile o'er th' hills, and a rough road," he
- answered.
-
- A sudden impulse seized me to visit Thrushcross Grange. It was
- scarcely noon, and I conceived that I might as well pass the night under
- my own roof as in an inn. Besides, I could spare a day easily to arrange
- matters with my landlord, and thus save myself the trouble of invading
- the neighbourhood again. Having rested a while, I directed my servant to
- inquire the way to the village, and with great fatigue to our beasts we
- managed the distance in some three hours.
-
- I left him there, and proceeded down the valley alone. The gray
- church looked grayer, and the lonely church yard lonelier. I
- distinguished a moor sheep cropping the short turf on the graves. It was
- sweet, warm weather
- - too warm for travelling; but the heat did not hinder me from enjoying
- the delightful scenery above and below. Had I seen it nearer August I'm
- sure it would have tempted me to waste a month among its solitudes. In
- winter nothing more dreary, in summer nothing more divine, than those
- glens shut in by hills, and those bluff, bold swells of heath.
-
- I reached the Grange before sunset, and knocked for admittance; but
- the family had retreated into the back premises, I judged, by one thin,
- blue wreath curling from the kitchen chimney, and they did not hear. I
- rode into the court. Under the porch a girl of nine or ten sat knitting,
- and an old woman reclined on the house-steps, smoking a meditative pipe.
-
- "Is Mrs. Dean within?" I demanded of the dame.
-
- "Mistress Dean? Nay!" she answered, "shoo doesn't bide here; shoo's
- up at th' Heights."
-
- "Are you the housekeeper, then?" I continued.
-
- "Eea, aw keep th' hause," she replied.
-
- "Well, I'm Mr. Lockwood, the master. Are there any rooms to lodge
- me in, I wonder? I wish to stay all night."
-
- "T'maister!" she cried in astonishment. "Whet! whoiver knew yah wur
- coming? Yah sud ha' send word. They's nowt norther dry nor mensful abaht
- t' place, nowt there isn't."
-
- She threw down her pipe and bustled in; the girl followed, and I
- entered too. Soon perceiving that her report was true, and, moreover,
- that I had almost upset her wits by my unwelcome apparition, I bade her
- be composed. I would go out for a walk, and meantime she must try to
- prepare a corner of a sitting-room for me to sup in, and a bedroom to
- sleep in. No sweeping and dusting - only good fire and dry sheets were
- necessary. She seemed willing to do her best, though she thrust the
- hearth-brush into the grates in mistake for the poker; and
- malappropriated several other articles of her craft; but I retired,
- confiding in her energy for a resting-place against my return. Wuthering
- Heights was the goal of my proposed excursion. An afterthought brought
- me back when I had quitted the court.
-
- "All well at the Heights?" I inquired of the woman.
-
- "Eea, f'r owt ee knaw," she answered, skurrying away with a pan of
- hot cinders.
-
- I would have asked why Mrs. Dean had deserted the Grange, but it
- was impossible to delay her at such a crisis, so I turned away and made
- my exit, rambling leisurely along with the glow of a sinking sun behind,
- and the mild glory of a rising moon in front - one fad ing and the
- other brightening - as I quitted the park and climbed the stony by-road
- branching off to Mr. Heathcliff's dwelling. Before I arrived in sight of
- it, all that remained of day was a beamless amber light along the west;
- but I could see every pebble on the path, and every blade of grass, by
- that splendid moon. I had neither to climb the gate nor to knock; it
- yielded to my hand. That is an improvement, I thought. And I noticed
- another by the aid of my nostrils - a fragrance of stocks and
- wallflowers wafted on the air from amongst the homely fruit-trees.
-
- Both doors and lattices were open; and yet, as is usually the case
- in a coal district, a fine, red fire illuminated the chimney. The
- comfort which the eye derives from it renders the extra heat endurable.
- But the house of Wuthering Heights is so large that the inmates have
- plenty of space for withdrawing out of its influence, and accordingly
- what inmates there were had stationed themselves not far from one of the
- windows. I could both see them and hear them talk before I entered, and
- looked and listened in consequence, being moved thereto by a mingled
- sense of curiosity and envy that grew as I lingered.
-
- "Con-trary!" said a voice as sweet as a silver bell.
-
- "That for the third time, you dunce! I'm not going to tell you
- again. Recollect, or I'll pull your hair."
-
- "Contrary, then," answered another, in deep but softened tones.
- "And now, kiss me for minding so well."
-
- "No; read it over first correctly, without a single mistake."
-
- The male speaker began to read. He was a young man respectably
- dressed and seated at a table, having a book before him. His handsome
- features glowed with pleasure, and his eyes kept impatiently wandering
- from the page to a small white hand over his shoulder, which recalled
- him by a smart slap on the cheek whenever its owner detected such signs
- of inattention. Its owner stood behind, her light, shining ringlets
- blending at intervals with his brown locks, as she bent to superintend
- his studies; and her face - it was lucky he could not see her face, or
- he would never have been so steady. I could, and I bit my lip in spite
- at having thrown away the chance I might have had of doing something
- besides staring at its smiting beauty.
-
- The task was done - not free from further blunders; but the pupil
- claimed a reward, and received at least five kisses, which, however, he
- generously returned. Then they came to the door, and from their
- conversation I judged they were about to issue out and have a walk on
- the moors. I supposed I should be condemned in Hareton Earnshaw's heart,
- if not by his mouth, to the lowest pit in the infernal regions if I
- showed my unfortunate person in his neighbourhood then; and feeling very
- mean and malignant, I skulked round to seek refuge in the kitchen.
- There was unobstructed admittance on that side also, and at the door sat
- my old friend Nelly Dean, sewing and singing a song, which was often
- interrupted from within by harsh words of scorn and intolerance, uttered
- in far from musical accents.
-
- "I'd rayther, by th' haulf, hev 'em swearing i' my lugs froh morn
- to neeght nor hearken ye hahsiver!" said the tenant of the kitchen, in
- answer to an unheard speech of Nelly's. "It's a blazing shame that I
- cannot oppen t' blessed Book but yah set up them glories to Sattan, and
- all t' flaysome wickednesses that iver were born into th' warld! Oh!
- ye're a raight nowt, and shoo's another, and that poor lad'll be lost
- atween ye. Poor lad!" he added, with a groan; "he's witched, I'm sartin
- on't! O Lord, judge 'em, for there's norther law nor justice among wer
- rullers!"
-
- "No, or we should be sitting in flaming fagots, I suppose,"
- retorted the singer. "But wisht, old man, and read your Bible like a
- Christian, and never mind me. This is 'Fairy Annie's Wedding' - a bonny
- tune; it goes to a dance."
-
- Mrs. Dean was about to recommence when I advanced; and recognizing
- me directly, she jumped to her feet, crying,--
- "Why, bless you, Mr. Lockwood! How could you think of returning in
- this way? All's shut up at Thrushcross Grange. You should have given us
- notice."
-
- "I've arranged to be accommodated there for as long as I shall
- stay," I answered. "I depart again tomorrow. And how are you
- transplanted here, Mrs. Dean? Tell me that."
-
- "Zillah left, and Mr. Heathcliff wished me to come, soon after you
- went to London, and stay till you returned. But step in, pray. Have you
- walked from Gimmerton this evening?"
-
- "From the Grange," I replied. "And while they make me lodging room
- there, I want to finish my business with your master, because I don't
- think of having another opportunity in a hurry."
-
- "What business, sir?" said Nelly, conducting me into the house.
- "He's gone out at present, and won't return soon."
-
- "About the rent," I answered.
-
- "Oh! then it is with Mrs. Heathcliff you must settle," she
- observed, "or rather with me. She has not learned to manage her affairs
- yet, and I act for her; there's nobody else."
-
- I looked surprised.
-
- "Ah! you have not heard of Heathcliff's death, I see," she
- continued.
-
- "Heathcliff dead!" I exclaimed, astonished. "How long ago?"
-
- "Three months since. But sit down, and let me take your hat, and
- I'll tell you all about it. Stop; you have had nothing to eat, have
- you?"
-
- "I want nothing; I have ordered supper at home. You sit down too. I
- never dreamt of his dying. Let me hear how it came to pass. You say you
- don't expect them back for some time - the young people?"
-
- "No. I have to scold them every evening for their late rambles, but
- they don't care for me. At least have a drink of our old ale; it will do
- you good; you seem weary."
-
- She hastened to fetch it before I could refuse, and I heard Joseph
- asking whether "it warn't a crying scandal that she should have
- followers at her time of life. And then, to get them jocks out o' t'
- maister's cellar! He fair shaamed to 'bide still and see it."
-
- She did not stay to retaliate, but re-entered in a minute, bearing
- a reaming silver pint, whose contents I lauded with becoming
- earnestness. And afterwards she furnished me with the sequel of
- Heathcliff's history. He had a "queer" end, as she expressed it.
-
- I was summoned to Wuthering Heights within a fortnight of your
- leaving us, she said, and I obeyed joyfully, for Catherine's sake. My
- first interview with her grieved and shocked me - she had altered so
- much since our separation. Mr. Heathcliff did not explain his reasons
- for taking a new mind about my coming here; he only told me he wanted
- me, and he was tired of seeing Catherine. I must make the little parlour
- my sitting-room, and keep her with me. It was enough if he were obliged
- to see her once or twice a day. She seemed pleased at this arrangement;
- and by degrees I smuggled over a great number of books and other
- articles that had formed her amusement at the Grange, and flattered
- myself we should get on in tolerable comfort. The delusion did not last
- long. Catherine, contented at first, in a brief space grew irritable and
- restless. For one thing, she was forbidden to move out of the garden,
- and it fretted her sadly to be confined to its narrow bounds as spring
- drew on; for another, in following the house I was forced to quit her
- frequently, and she complained of loneliness. She preferred quarrelling
- with Joseph in the kitchen to sitting at peace in her solitude. I did
- not mind their skirmishes; but Hareton was often obliged to seek the
- kitchen also .when the master wanted to have the house to himself; and
- though in the beginning she either left it at his approach, or quietly
- joined in my occupations, and shunned remarking or addressing him, and
- though he was always as sullen and silent as possible, after a while she
- changed her behaviour and became incapable of letting him alone, talking
- at him, commenting on his stupidity and idleness, expressing her wonder
- how he could endure the life he lived, how he could sit a whole evening
- staring into the fire and dozing.
-
- "He's just like a dog, is he not, Ellen?" she once observed, "or a
- cart-horse? He does his work, eats his food, and sleeps eternally. What
- a blank, dreary mind he must have! - Do you ever dream, Hareton? And if
- you do, what is it about? But you can't speak to me!"
-
- Then she looked at him, but he would neither open his mouth nor
- look again.
-
- "He's perhaps dreaming now," she continued. "He twitched his
- shoulder as Juno twitches hers. Ask him, Ellen."
-
- "Mr. Hareton will ask the master to send you upstairs, if you don't
- behave," I said. He had not only twitched his shoulder but clenched his
- fist, as if tempted to use it.
-
- "I know why Hareton never speaks when I am in the kitchen," she
- exclaimed on another occasion. "He is afraid I shall laugh at him.
- Ellen, what do you think? He began to teach himself to read once, and
- because I laughed he burned his books and dropped it. Was he not a
- fool?"
-
- "Were not you naughty?" I said. "Answer me that."
-
- "Perhaps I was," she went on, "but I did not expect him to be so
- silly - Hareton, if I gave you a book, would you take it now? I'll try."
-
-
- She placed one she had been perusing on his hand. He flung it off,
- and muttered, if she did not give over he would break her neck.
-
- "Well, I shall put it here," she said - "in the table drawer; and
- I'm going to bed."
-
- Then she whispered me to watch whether he touched it, and departed.
- But he would not come near it; and so I informed her in the morning, to
- her great disappointment. I saw she was sorry for his persevering
- sulkiness and indolence. Her conscience reproved her for frightening him
- off improving himself. She had done it effectually. But her ingenuity
- was at work to remedy the injury. While I ironed or pursued other such
- stationary employments as I could not well do in the parlour, she would
- bring some pleasant volume and read it aloud to me. When Hareton was
- there she generally paused in an interesting part and left the book
- lying about - that she did repeatedly; but he was as obstinate as a
- mule, and, instead of snatching at her bait, in wet weather he took to
- smoking with Joseph; and they sat like automatons, one on each side of
- the fire, the elder happily too deaf to understand her wicked nonsense,
- as he would have called it, the younger doing his best to seem to
- disregard it. On fine evenings the latter followed his shooting
- expeditions, and Catherine yawned and sighed, and teased me to talk to
- her, and ran off into the court or garden the moment I began, and as a
- last resource cried and said she was tired of living - her life was
- useless.
-
- Mr. Heathcliff, who grew more and more disinclined to society, had
- almost banished Earnshaw from his apartment. Owing to an accident at the
- commencement of March, he became for some days a fixture in the kitchen.
- His gun burst while out on the hills by himself; a splinter cut his arm,
- and he lost a good deal of blood before he could reach home. The
- consequence was that, perforce, he was condemned to the fireside and
- tranquillity till he made it up again. It suited Catherine to have him
- there. At any rate, it made her hate her room upstairs more than ever;
- and she would compel me to find out business below, that she might
- accompany me.
-
- On Easter Monday Joseph went to Gimmerton fair with some cattle,
- and in the afternoon I was busy getting up linen in the kitchen.
- Earnshaw sat, morose as usual, at the chimney-corner, and my little
- mistress was beguiling an idle hour with drawing pictures on the window
- panes, varying her amusement by smothered bursts of songs, and whispered
- ejaculations, and quick glances of annoyance and impatience in the
- direction of her cousin, who steadfastly smoked, and looked into the
- grate. At a notice that I could do with her no longer intercepting my
- light, she removed to the hearthstone. I bestowed little attention on
- her proceedings, but presently I heard her begin,--
- "I've found out, Hareton, that I want - that I'm glad
- - that I should like you to be my cousin now, if you had not grown so
- cross to me and so rough."
-
- Hareton returned no answer.
-
- "Hareton, Hareton, Hareton! do you hear?" she continued.
-
- "Get off wi' ye!" he growled, with uncompromising gruffness.
-
- "Let me take that pipe," she said, cautiously advancing her hand
- and abstracting it from his mouth. Before he could attempt to recover
- it, it was broken and behind the fire. He swore at her and seized
- another.
-
- "Stop," she cried; "you must listen to me first; and I can't speak
- while those clouds are floating in my face."
-
- "Will you go to the devi!" he exclaimed ferociously,
-
- "and let me be!"
-
- "No," she persisted, "I won't. I can't tell what to do to make you
- talk to me, and you are determined not to understand. When I call you
- stupid, I don't mean anything. I don't mean that I despise you. Come,
- you shall take notice of me, Hareton. You are my cousin, and you shall
- own me."
-
- "I shall have naught to do wi' you and your mucky pride, and your
- damned mocking tricks!" he answered.
-
- "I'll go to hell, body and soul, before I look sideways after you
- again. Side out o' t' gate now, this minute!"
-
- Catherine frowned and retreated to the window-seat chewing her lip,
- and endeavouring, by humming an eccentric tune, to conceal a growing
- tendency to sob.
-
- "You should be friends with your cousin, Mr. Hareton," I
- interrupted, "since she repents of her sauciness. It would do you a
- great deal of good; it would make you another man to have her for a
- companion."
-
- "A companion!" he cried, "when she hates me, and does not think me
- fit to wipe her shoon! Nay! if it made me a king, I'd not be scorned for
- seeking her good-will any more."
-
- "It is not I who hate you; it is you who hate me!" wept Cathy, no
- longer disguising her trouble. "You hate me as much as Mr. Heathcliff
- does, and more."
-
- "You're a damned liar," began Earnshaw. "Why have I made him angry
- by taking your part, then, a hundred times, and that when you sneered at
- and despised me, and - -- Go on plaguing me, and I'll step in yonder and
- say you worried me out of the kitchen."
-
- "I didn't know you took my part," she answered, drying her eyes,
- "and I was miserable and bitter at everybody; but now I thank you, and
- beg you to forgive me. What can I do besides?"
-
- She returned to the hearth, and frankly extended her hand. He
- blackened and scowled like a thundercloud, and kept his fists resolutely
- clenched, and his gaze fixed on the ground. Catherine, by instinct,
- must have divined it was obdurate perversity, and not dislike, that
- prompted this dogged conduct, for, after remaining an instant undecided,
- she stooped and impressed on his cheek a gentle kiss. The little rogue
- thought I had not seen her, and drawing back, she took her former
- station by the window, quite demurely. I shook my head reprovingly, and
- then she blushed and whispered,--
- "Well, what should I have done, Ellen? He wouldn't shake hands, and
- he wouldn't look; I must show him some way that I like him - that I want
- to be friends."
-
- Whether the kiss convinced Hareton I cannot tell. He was very
- careful, for some minutes, that his face should not be seen; and when he
- did raise it, he was sadly puzzled where to turn his eyes.
-
- Catherine employed herself in wrapping a handsome book neatly in
- white paper, and having tied it with a bit of ribbon, and addressed it
- to "Mr. Hareton Earnshaw," she desired me to be her ambassadress, and
- convey the present to its destined recipient.
-
- "And tell him if he'll take it I'll come and teach him to read it
- right," she said; "and if he refuse it I'll go upstairs and never tease
- him again."
-
- I carried it, and repeated the message, anxiously watched by my
- employer. Hareton would not open his fingers, so I laid it on his knee.
- He did not strike it off either. I returned to my work. Catherine
- leaned her head and arms on the table, till she heard the slight rustle
- of the covering being removed; then she stole away and quietly seated
- herself beside her cousin. He trembled, and his face glowed; all his
- rudeness and all his surly harshness had deserted him. He could not
- summon courage at first to utter a syllable in reply to her questioning
- look and her murmured petition,--
- "Say you forgive me, Hareton, do. You can make me so happy by
- speaking that little word."
-
- He muttered something inaudible.
-
- "And you'll be my friend?" added Catherine interrogatively.
-
- "Nay, you'll be ashamed of me every day of your life," he answered,
- "and the more ashamed the more you know me; and I cannot bide it."
-
- "So you won't be my friend?" she said, smiling as sweet as honey,
- and creeping close up.
-
- I overheard no further distinguishable talk, but, on looking round
- again, I perceived two such radiant countenances bent over the page of
- the accepted book that I did not doubt the treaty had been ratified on
- both sides, and the enemies were thenceforth sworn allies.
-
- The work they studied was full of costly pictures, and those and
- their position had charm enough to keep them unmoved till Joseph came
- home. He, poor man, was perfectly aghast at the spectacle of Catherine
- seated on the same bench with Hareton Earnshaw, leaning her hand on his
- shoulder, and confounded at his favourite's endurance of her proximity;
- it affected him too deeply to allow an observation on the subject that
- night. His emotion was only revealed by the immense sighs he drew as he
- solemnly spread his large Bible on the table, and overlaid it with dirty
- bank-notes from his pocketbook, the produce of the day's transactions.
- At length he summoned Hareton from his seat.
-
- "Tak' these in to t' maister, lad," he said, "and bide there. I's
- gang up to my own rahm. This hoile's neither mensful nor seemly for us;
- we mun side out and seearch another."
-
- "Come, Catherine," I said, "we must 'side out' too. I've done my
- ironing. Are you ready to go?"
-
- "It is not eight o'clock," she answered, rising unwillingly -
- "Hareton, I'll leave this book upon the chimney-piece, and I'll bring
- some more to-morrow."
-
- "Ony books that yah leave I shall tak' into th' hahse," said
- Joseph, "and it'll be mitch if yah find 'em agean. Soa yah may plase
- yerseln."
-
- Cathy threatened that his library should pay for hers, and smiling
- as she passed Hareton, went singing up stairs, lighter of heart, I
- venture to say, than ever she had been under that roof before, except,
- perhaps, during her earliest visits to Linton.
-
- The intimacy thus commenced grew rapidly, though it encountered
- temporary interruptions. Earnshaw was not to be civilized with a wish,
- and my young lady was no philosopher and no paragon of patience; but
- both their minds tending to the same point - one loving and desiring to
- esteem, and the other loving and desiring to be esteemed - they
- contrived in the end to reach it.
-
- You see, Mr. Lockwood, it was easy enough to win Mrs. Heathcliff's
- heart. - But now I'm glad you did not try. The crown of all my wishes
- will be the union of those two. I shall envy no one on their
- wedding-day. There won't be a happier woman than myself in England.
-
-
- CHAPTER XXXIII.
-
-
- On the morrow of that Monday, Earnshaw being still unable to follow his
- ordinary employments, and therefore remaining about the house, I
- speedily found it would be impracticable to retain my charge beside me
- as heretofore. She got downstairs before me, and out into the garden,
- where she had seen her cousin performing some easy work; and when I went
- to bid them come to breakfast, I saw she had persuaded him to clear a
- large space of ground from currant and gooseberry bushes, and they were
- busy planning together an importation of plants from the Grange.
-
- I was terrified at the devastation which had been accomplished in a
- brief half-hour. The black currant trees were the apple of Joseph's eye,
- and she had just fixed her choice of a flower-bed in the midst of them.
-
- "There! That will be all shown to the master," I exclaimed, "the
- minute it is discovered. And what excuse have you to offer for taking
- such liberties with the garden? We shall have a fine explosion on the
- head of it
- - see if we don't. - Mr. Hareton, I wonder you should have no more wit
- than to go and make that mess at her bidding!"
-
- "I'd forgotten they were Joseph's," answered Earnshaw, rather
- puzzled, "but I'll tell him I did it."
-
- We always ate our meals with Mr. Heathcliff. I held the mistress's
- post in making tea and carving, so I was indispensable at table.
- Catherine usually sat by me, but to-day she stole nearer to Hareton, and
- I presently saw she would have no more discretion in her friendship than
- she had in her hostility.
-
- "Now, mind you don't talk with and notice your cousin too much,"
- were my whispered instructions as we entered the room. "It will
- certainly annoy Mr. Heathcliff, and he'll be mad at you both."
-
- "I'm not going to," she answered.
-
- The minute after, she had sidled to him, and was sticking primroses
- in his plate of porridge.
-
- He dared not speak to her there - he dared hardly look; and yet she
- went on teasing till he was twice on the point of being provoked to
- laugh. I frowned, and then she glanced toward the master, whose mind was
- occupied on other subjects than his company, as his countenance evinced;
- and she grew serious for an instant, scrutinizing him with deep gravity.
- Afterwards she turned and recommenced her nonsense. At last Hareton
- uttered a smothered laugh. Mr. Heathcliff started; his eye rapidly
- surveyed our faces. Catherine met it with her accustomed look of
- nervousness and yet defiance, which he abhorred.
-
- "It is well you are out of my reach," he exclaimed.
-
- "What fiend possesses you to stare back at me continually with
- those infernal eyes? Down with them! and don't remind me of your
- existence again. I thought I had cured you of laughing."
-
- "It was me," muttered Hareton.
-
- "What do you say?" demanded the master.
-
- Hareton looked at his plate, and did not repeat the confession. Mr.
- Heathcliff looked at him a bit, and then silently resumed his breakfast
- and his interrupted musing. We had nearly finished, and the two young
- people prudently shifted wider asunder, so I anticipated no further
- disturbance during that sitting, when Joseph appeared at the door,
- revealing by his quivering lip and furious eyes that the outrage
- committed on his precious shrubs was detected. He must have seen Cathy
- and her cousin about the spot before he examined it, for while his jaws
- worked like those of a cow chewing its cud, and rendered his speech
- difficult to understand, he began,--
- "I mun hev my wage, and I mun goa. I hed aimed to dee wheare I'd
- sarved fur sixty year, and I thowt I'd lug my books up into t' garret,
- and all my bits o' stuff, and they sud hev t' kitchen to theirseln, for
- t' sake o' quietness. It wur hard to gie up my awn hearthstun, but I
- thowt I could do that. But nah; shoo's taan my garden fro' me, and by
- th' heart, maister, I cannot stand it. Yah may bend to th' yoak, and ye
- will; I noan used to't, and an old man doesn't sooin get used to new
- barthens. I'd rayther arn my bite an' my sup wi' a hammer in th' road."
-
-
- "Now, now, idiot," interrupted Heathcliff, "cut it short! What's
- your grievance? I'll interfere in no quarrels between you and Nelly. She
- may thrust you into the coal-hole for anything I care."
-
- "It's noan Nelly," answered Joseph. "I sudn't shift for Nelly,
- nasty ill nowt as shoo is. Thank God! shoo cannot stale t' sowl o'
- nob'dy! Shoo wer niver soa handsome but what a body mud look at her
- 'bout winking. It's yon flaysome, graceless quean that's witched our lad
- wi' her bold een and her forrard ways, till - - Nay, it fair brusts my
- heart! He's forgotten all I've done for him, and made on him, and goan
- and riven up a whole row o' t' grandest currant trees i' t' garden!" And
- here he lamented outright, unmanned by a sense of his bitter injuries
- and Earnshaw's ingratitude and dangerous condition.
-
- "Is the fool drunk?" asked Mr. Heathcliff. - "Hareton, is it you
- he's finding fault with?"
-
- "I've pulled up two or three bushes," replied the young man, "but
- I'm going to set 'em again."
-
- "And why have you pulled them up?" said the master.
-
- Catherine wisely put in her tongue.
-
- "We wanted to plant some flowers there," she cried.
-
- "I'm the only person to blame, for I wished him to do it."
-
- "And who the devil gave you leave to touch a stick about the
- place?" demanded her father-in-law, much surprised - "And who ordered
- you to obey her?" he added, turning to Hareton.
-
- The latter was speechless. His cousin replied,--
- "You shouldn't grudge a few yards of earth for me to ornament, when
- you have taken all my land!"
-
- "Your land, insolent slut! You never had any," said Heathcliff.
-
- "And my money," she continued, returning his angry glare, and
- meantime biting a piece of crust, the remnant of her breakfast.
-
- "Silence!" he exclaimed. "Get done, and begone!"
-
- "And Hareton's land, and his money," pursued the reckless thing.
- "Hareton and I are friends now, and I shall tell him all about you."
-
- The master seemed confounded a moment. He grew pale and rose up,
- eyeing her all the while with an expression of mortal hate.
-
- "If you strike me, Hareton will strike you," she said, "so you may
- as well sit down."
-
- "If Hareton does not turn you out of the room I'll strike him to
- hell," thundered Heathcliff. "Damnable witch! dare you pretend to rouse
- him against me? - Off with her! Do you hear? Fling her into the kitchen!
- - I'll kill her, Ellen Dean, if you let her come into my sight again!"
-
- Hareton tried, under his breath, to persuade her to go.
-
- "Drag her away!" he cried savagely. "Are you staying to talk?" And
- he approached to execute his own command.
-
- "He'll not obey you, wicked man, any more," said Catherine, "and
- he'll soon detest you as much as I do."
-
- "Wisht! wisht!" muttered the young man reproachfully. "I will not
- hear you speak so to him. Have done."
-
- "But you won't let him strike me?" she cried. "Come, then," he
- whispered earnestly.
-
- It was too late. Heathcliff had caught hold of her.
-
- "Now, you go!" he said to Earnshaw. "Accursed witch! this time she
- has provoked me when I could not bear it, and I'll make her repent it
- for ever!"
-
- He had his hand in her hair. Hareton attempted to release her
- locks, entreating him not to hurt her that once. Heathcliff's black eyes
- flashed - he seemed ready to tear Catherine in pieces; and I was just
- worked up to risk coming to the rescue, when of a sudden his fingers
- relaxed; he shifted his grasp from her head to her arm, and gazed
- intently in her face. Then he drew his hand over her eyes, stood a
- moment to collect himself apparently, and turning anew to Catherine,
- said with assumed calmness, "You must learn to avoid putting me in a
- passion, or I shall really murder you some time! Go with Mrs. Dean, and
- keep with her, and confine your insolence to her ears. As to Hareton
- Earnshaw, if I see him listen to you I'll send him seeking his bread
- where he can get it. Your love will make him an outcast and a beggar. -
- Nelly, take her; and leave me, all of you! - leave me!"
-
- I led my young lady out. She was too glad of her escape to resist.
- The other followed, and Mr. Heathcliff had the room to himself till
- dinner. I had counselled Catherine to dine upstairs, but as soon as he
- perceived her vacant seat he sent me to call her. He spoke to none of
- us, ate very little, and went out directly afterwards, intimating that
- he should not return before evening.
-
- The two new friends established themselves in the house during his
- absence, when I heard Hareton sternly check his cousin on her offering
- a revelation of her father-in-law's conduct to his father. He said he
- wouldn't suffer a word to be uttered in his disparagement. lf he were
- the devil, it didn't signify - he would stand by him; and he'd rather
- she would abuse himself, as she used to, than begin on Mr. Heathcliff.
- Catherine was waxing cross at this, but he found means to make her hold
- her tongue by asking how she would like him to speak ill of her father.
- Then she comprehended that Earnshaw took the master's reputation home to
- himself, and was attached by ties stronger than reason could break -
- chains forged by habit, which it would be cruel to attempt to loosen.
- She showed a good heart, thenceforth, in avoiding both complaints and
- expressions of antipathy concerning Heathcliff, and confessed to me her
- sorrow that she had endeavoured to raise a bad spirit between him and
- Hareton. Indeed, I don't believe she has ever breathed a syllable, in
- the latter's hearing, against her oppressor since.
-
- When this slight disagreement was over, they were friends again,
- and as busy as possible in their several occupations of pupil and
- teacher. I came in to sit with them after I had done my work, and I felt
- so soothed and comforted to watch them that I did not notice how time
- got on. You know they both appeared in a measnre my children. I had long
- been proud of one, and now I was sure the other would be a source of
- equal satisfaction. His honest, warm, and intelligent nature shook off
- rapidly the clouds of ignorance and degradation in which it had been
- bred, and Catherine's sincere commendations acted as a spur to his
- industry. His bright ening mind brightened his features, and added
- spirit and nobility to their aspect. I could hardly fancy it the same
- individual I had beheld on the day I discovered my little lady at
- Wuthering Heights, after her expedition to the Crags. While I admired
- and they laboured, dusk drew on, and with it returned the master. He
- came upon us quite unexpectedly, entering by the front way, and had a
- full view of the whole three ere we could raise our heads to glance at
- him. Well, I reflected, there was never a pleasanter or more harmless
- sight, and it will be a burning shame to scold them. The red firelight
- glowed on their two bonny heads, and revealed their faces animated with
- the eager interest of children; for though he was twenty-three and she
- eighteen, each had so much of novelty to feel and learn that neither
- experienced nor evinced the sentiments of sober, disenchanted maturity.
-
- They lifted their eyes together, to encounter Mr. Heathcliff.
- Perhaps you have never remarked that their eyes are precisely similar,
- and they are those of Catherine Earnshaw. The present Catherine has no
- other likeness to her, except a breadth of forehead and a certain arch
- of the nostril that makes her appear rather haughty, whether she will or
- not. With Hareton the resemblance is carried further. It is singular at
- all times; then it was particularly striking, because his senses were
- alert, and his mental faculties wakened to unwonted activity. I suppose
- this resemblance disarmed Mr. Heathcliff. He walked to the hearth in
- evident agitation, but it quickly subsided as he looked at the young man
- - or, I should say, altered its character, for it was there yet. He
- took the book from his hand and glanced at the open page, then returned
- it without any observation, merely signing Catherine away. Her companion
- lingered very little behind her; and I was about to depart also, but he
- bade me sit still.
-
- "It is a poor conclusion, is it not?" he observed, having brooded a
- while on the scene he had just witnessed
- - "an absurd termination to my violent exertions? I get levers and
- mattocks to demolish the two houses, and train myself to be capable of
- working like Hercules, and when everything is ready and in my power I
- find the will to lift a slate of either roof has vanished! My old
- enemies have not beaten me. Now would be the precise time to revenge
- myself on their representatives. I could do it, and none could hinder
- me. But where is the use? I don't care for striking; I can't take the
- trouble to raise my hand. That sounds as if I had been labouring the
- whole time only to exhibit a fine trait of magnanimity. It is far from
- being the case. I have lost the faculty of enjoying their destruction,
- and I am too idle to destroy for nothing.
-
- "Nelly, there is a strange change approaching; I'm in its shadow at
- present. I take so little interest in my daily life that I hardly
- remember to eat and drink. Those two who have left the room are the only
- objects which retain a distinct material appearance to me, and that
- appearance causes me pain, amounting to agony. About her I won't speak,
- and I don't desire to think, but I earnestly wish she were invisible.
- Her presence invokes only maddening sensations. He moves me
-
- differently; and yet if I could do it without seeming insane, I'd never
- see him again. You'll perhaps think me rather inclined to become so," he
- added, making an effort to smile, "if I try to describe the thousand
- forms of past associations and ideas he awakens or embodies. But you'll
- not talk of what I tell you; and my mind is so eternally secluded in
- itself, it is tempting at last to turn it out to another.
-
- "Five minutes ago Hareton seemed a personification of my youth, not
- a human being. I felt to him in such a variety of ways that it would
- have been impossible to have accosted him rationally. In the first
- place, his startling likeness to Catherine connected him fearfully with
- her. That, however, which you may suppose the most potent to arrest my
- imagination, is actually the least; for what is not connected with her
- to me? and what does not recall her? I cannot look down to this floor
- but her features are shaped in the flags. In every cloud, in every tree
- - filling the air at night, and caught by glimpses in every object by
- day--I am surrounded with her image. The most ordinary faces of men and
- women
- - my own features - mock me with a resemblance. The entire world is a
- dreadful collection of memoranda that she did exist, and that I have
- lost her. Well, Hareton's aspect was the ghost of my immortal love, of
- my wild endeavours to hold my right, my degradation, my pride, my
- happiness, and my anguish - --
- "But it is frenzy to repeat these thoughts to you; only it will let
- you know why, with a reluctance to be always alone, his society is no
- benefit, rather an aggravation of the constant torment I suffer; and
- it partly contributes to render me regardless how he and his cousin go
- on together. I can give them no attention any more."
-
- "But what do you mean by a change, Mr. Heathcliff?" I said, alarmed
- at his manner, though he was neither in danger of losing his senses nor
- dying, according to my judgment. He was quite strong and healthy; and as
- to his reason, from childhood he had a delight in dwelling on dark
- things and entertaining odd fancies. He might have had a monomania on
- the subject of his departed idol, but on every other point his wits were
- as sound as mine.
-
- "I shall not know that till it comes," he said, "I'm only half
- conscious of it now."
-
- "You have no feeling of illness, have you?" I asked.
-
- "No, Nelly, I have not," he answered.
-
- "Then you are not afraid of death?" I pursued.
-
- "Afraid? No!" he replied. "I have neither a fear, nor a
- presentiment, nor a hope of death. Why should I? With my hard
- constitution, and temperate mode of living, and unperilous occupations,
- I ought to, and probably shall, remain above ground till there is
- scarcely a black hair on my head. And yet I cannot continue in this
- condition. I have to remind myself to breathe, almost to remind my heart
- to beat. And it is like bending back a stiff spring; it is by compulsion
- that I do the slightest act not prompted by one thought, and by
- compulsion that I notice anything alive or dead which is not associated
- with one universal idea. I have a single wish, and my whole being and
- faculties are yearning to attain it. They have yearned towards it so
- long and so unwaveringly that I'm convinced it will be reached - and
- soon - because it has devoured my existence. I am swallowed up in the
- anticipation of its fulfilment. My confessions have not relieved me, but
- they may account for some otherwise unaccountable phases of humour which
- I show. - O God! it is a long fight, I wish it were over!"
-
- He began to pace the room, muttering terrible things to himself,
- till I was inclined to believe, as he said Joseph did, that conscience
- had turned his heart to an earthly hell. I wondered greatly how it would
- end. Though he seldom before had revealed his state of mind, even by
- looks, it was his habitual mood, I had no doubt. He asserted it himself;
- but not a soul, from his general bearing, would have conjectured the
- fact. You did not when you saw him, Mr. Lockwood; and at the period of
- which I speak he was just the same as then, only fonder of continued
- solitude, and perhaps still more laconic in company.
-
- CHAPTER XXXIV.
-
-
- For some days after that evening Mr. Heathcliff shunned meeting us at
- meals, yet he would not consent formally to exclude Hareton and Cathy.
- He had an aversion to yielding so completely to his feelings, choosing
- rather to absent himself; and eating once in twenty-four hours seemed
- sufficient sustenance for him.
-
- One night, after the family were in bed, I heard him go downstairs
- and out at the front door. I did not hear him re-enter, and in the
- morning I found he was still away. We were in April then. The weather
- was sweet and warm, the grass as green as showers and sun could make it,
- and the two dwarf apple-trees near the southern wall in full bloom.
- After breakfast Catherine insisted on my bringing a chair and sitting
- with my work under the fir-trees at the end of the house; and she
- beguiled Hareton, who had perfectly recovered from his accident, to dig
- and arrange her little garden, which was shifted to that corner by the
- influence of Joseph's complaint. I was comfortably revelling in the
- spring fragrance around, and the beautiful soft blue overhead, when my
- young lady, who had run down near the gate to procure some primrose
- roots for a border, returned only half laden, and informed us that Mr.
- Heathcliff was coming in. "And he spoke to me," she added, with a
- perplexed countenance.
-
- "What did he say?" asked Hareton.
-
- "He told me to begone as fast as I could," she answered. "But he
- looked so different from his usual iook that I stopped a moment to stare
- at him."
-
- "How?" he inquired.
-
- "Why, almost bright and cheerful. No, almost nothing - very much
- excited, and wild and glad!" she replied.
-
- "Night-walking amuses him, then," I remarked, affecting a careless
- manner - in reality as surprised as she was, and anxious to ascertain
- the truth of her statement, for to see the master looking glad would not
- be an every-day spectacle. I framed an excuse to go in. Heathcliff stood
- at the open door. He was pale, and he trembled, yet certainly he had a
- strange, joyful glitter in his eyes that altered the aspect of his whole
- face.
-
- "Will you have some breakfast?" I said. "You must be hungry
- rambling about all night." I wanted to discover where he had been, but I
- did not like to ask directly.
-
- "No, I'm not hungry," he answered, averting his head and speaking
- rather contemptuously, as if he guessed I was trying to divine the
- occasion of his good-humour.
-
- I felt perplexed. I didn't know whether it were not a proper
- opportunity to offer a bit of admonition.
-
- "I don't think it right to wander out of doors," I observed,
- "instead of being in bed. It is not wise, at any rate, this moist
- season. I dare say you'll catch a bad cold or a fever. You have
- something the matter with you now."
-
- "Nothing but what I can bear," he replied, "and with the greatest
- pleasure, provided you'll leave me alone. Get in, and don't annoy me."
-
- I obeyed, and in passing I noticed he breathed as fast as a cat.
-
- "Yes," I reflected to myself, "we shall have a fit of illness. I
- cannot conceive what he has been doing."
-
- That noon he sat down to dinner with us, and received a heaped-up
- plate from my hands, as if he intended to make amends for previous
- fasting.
-
- "I've neither cold nor fever, Nelly," he remarked, in allusion to
- my morning's speech, "and I'm ready to do justice to the food you give
- me."
-
- He took his knife and fork, and was going to commence eating, when
- the inclination appeared to become suddenly extinct. He laid them on the
- table, looked eagerly towards the window, then rose and went out. We saw
- him walking to and fro in the garden while we concluded our meal, and
- Earnshaw said he'd go and ask why he would not dine; he thought we had
- grieved him some way.
-
- "Well, is he coming?" cried Catherine, when her cousin returned.
-
- "Nay," he answered; "but he's not angry. He seemed rarely pleased
- indeed; only I made him impatient by speaking to him twice, and then he
- bade me be off to you. He wondered how I could want the company of
- anybody else."
-
- I set his plate to keep warm on the fender, and after an hour or
- two he re-entered, when the room was clear, in no degree calmer - the
- same unnatural (it was unnatural) appearance of joy under his black
- brows; the same bloodless hue, and his teeth visible, now and then, in a
- kind of smile; his frame shivering - not as one shivers with chill or
- weakness, but as a tightstretched cord vibrates - a strong thrilling
- rather than trembling.
-
- I will ask what is the matter, I thought; or who should? And I
- exclaimed,--
- "Have you heard any good news, Mr. Heathcliff? You look uncommonly
- animated."
-
- "Where should good news come from to me?" he said. "I'm animated
- with hunger, and seemingly I must not eat."
-
- "Your dinner is here," I returned; "why won't you get it?"
-
- "I don't want it now," he muttered hastily. "I'll wait till supper.
- And, Nelly, once for all, let me beg you to warn Hareton and the other
- away from me. I wish to be troubled by nobody. I wish to have this place
- to myself."
-
- "Is there some new reason for this banishment?" I inquired. "Tell
- me why you are so queer, Mr. Heathcliff. Where were you last night? I'm
- not putting the question through idle curiosity, but - - "
-
- "You are putting the question through very idle curiosity," he
- interrupted, with a laugh. "Yes, I'll answer it. Last night I was on the
- threshold of hell. Today I am within sight of my heaven. I have my eyes
- on it - hardly three feet to sever me. And now you'd better go. You'll
- neither see nor hear anything to frighten you if you refrain from
- prying."
-
- Having swept the hearth and wiped the table, I departed, more
- perplexed than ever.
-
- He did not quit the house again that afternoon, and no one intruded
- on his solitude, till, at eight o'clock, I deemed it proper, though
- unsummoned, to carry a candle and his supper to him. He was leaning
- against the ledge of an open lattice, but not looking out; his face was
- turned to the interior gloom. The fire had smouldered to ashes; the room
- was fllled with the damp, mild air of the cloudy evening, and so still
- that not only the murmur of the beck down Gimmerton was distinguishable,
- but its ripples and its gurgling over the pebbles, or through the
- large stones which it could not cover. I uttered an ejaculation of
- discontent at seeing the dismal grate, and commenced shutting the
- casements, one after another, till I came to his.
-
- "Must I close this?" I asked, in order to rouse him, for he would
- not stir.
-
- The light flashed on his features as I spoke. O Mr. Lockwood, I
- cannot express what a terrible start I got by the momentary view - those
- deep black eyes, that smile and ghastly paleness! It appeared to me not
- Mr. Heathcliff, but a goblin; and in my terror I let the candle bend
- towards the wall, and it left me in darkness.
-
- "Yes, close it," he replied, in his familiar voice.
-
- "There, that is pure awkwardness! Why did you hold the candle
- horizontally? Be quick, and bring another."
-
- I hurried out in a foolish state of dread, and said to Joseph,--
- "The master wishes you to take him a light and rekindle the fire."
- For I dare not go in myself again just then.
-
- Joseph rattled some fire into the shovel, and went; but he brought
- it back immediately with the supper-tray in his other hand, explaining
- that Mr. Heathcliff was going to bed, and he wanted nothing to eat till
- morning. We heard him mount the stairs directly. He did not proceed to
- his ordinary chamber, but turned into that with the panelled bed. Its
- window, as I mentioned before, is wide enough for anybody to get
- through; and it struck me that he plotted another midnight excursion, of
- which he had rather we had no suspicion.
-
- "Is he a ghoul or a vampire?" I mused. I had read of such hideous
- incarnate demons. And then I set myself to reflect how I had tended him
- in infancy, and watched him grow to youth, and followed him almost
- through his whole course, and what absurd nonsense it was to yield to
- that sense of horror. "But where did he come from, the little dark
- thing, harboured by a good man to his bane?" muttered Superstition, as I
- dozed into unconsciousness. And I began, half dreaming, to weary myself
- with imagining some fit parentage for him; and repeating my waking
- meditations, I tracked his existence over again, with grim variations,
- at last picturing his death and funeral, of which all I can remember is
- being exceedingly vexed at having the task of dictating an inscription
- for his monument, and consulting the sexton about it; and as he had no
- surname, and we could not tell his age, we were obliged to content
- ourselves with the single word, "Heathcliff." That came true; we were.
- If you enter the kirkyard you'll read on his headstone only that, and
- the date of his death.
-
- Dawn restored me to common-sense. I rose and went into the garden
- as soon as I could see, to ascertain if there were any footmarks under
- his window. There were none. "He has stayed at home," I thought, "and
- he'll be all right to-day." I prepared breakfast for the household, as
- was my usual custom, but told Hareton and Catherine to get theirs ere
- the master came down, for he lay late. They preferred taking it out of
- doors, under the trees, and I set a little table to accommodate them.
-
- On my re-entrance I found Mr. Heathcliff below. He and Joseph were
- conversing about some farming business. He gave clear, minute directions
- concerning the matter discussed, but he spoke rapidly, and turned his
- head continually aside, and had the same excited expression, even more
- exaggerated. When Joseph quitted the room he took his seat in the place
- he generally chose, and I put a basin of coffee before him. He drew it
- nearer, and then rested his arms on the table and looked at the opposite
- wall, as I supposed, surveying one particular portion, up and down, with
- glittering, restless eyes, and with such eager interest that he stopped
- breathing during half a minute together.
-
- "Come now," I exclaimed, pushing some bread against his hand, "eat
- and drink that while it is hot; it has been waiting near an hour."
-
- He didn't notice me, and yet he smiled. I'd rather have seen him
- gnash his teeth than smile so.
-
- "Mr. Heathcliff! master!" I cried, "don't, for God's sake, stare as
- if you saw an unearthly vision."
-
- "Don't, for God's sake, shout so loud," he replied.
-
- "Turn round and tell me - are we by ourselves?"
-
- "Of course," was my answer - "of course we are."
-
- Still I involuntarily obeyed him, as if I was not quite sure. With
- a sweep of his hand he cleared a vacant space in front among the
- breakfast things, and leant forward to gaze more at his ease.
-
- Now I perceived he was not looking at the wall, for when I regarded
- him alone it seemed exactly that he gazed at something within two yards'
- distance. And whatever it was, it communicated apparently both pleasure
- and pain in exquisite extremes - at least the anguished yet raptured
- expression of his countenance suggested that idea. The fancied object
- was not fixed either; his eyes pursued it with unwearied diligence, and,
- even in speaking to me, were never weaned away. I vainly reminded him of
- his protracted abstinence from food. If he stirred to touch anything in
- compliance with my entreaties, if he stretched his hand out to get a
- piece of bread, his fingers clenched before they reached it, and
- remained on the table, forgetful of their aim. I sat, a model of
- patience, trying to attract his absorbed attentlion from its engrossing
- speculation, till he grew irritable, and got up, asking why I would not
- allow him to have his own time in taking his meals, and saying that on
- the next occasion I needn't wait - L might set the things down and go.
- Having uttered these words he left the house, slowly sauntered down the
- garden path, and disappeared through the gate. The hours crept
- anxiously by; another evening came. I did not retire to rest till late,
- and when I did I could not sleep. He returned after midnight, and
- instead of going to bed, shut himself into the room beneath. I listened
- and tossed about, and finally dressed and descended. It was too irksome
- to lie there harassing my brain with a hundred idle misgivings.
-
- I distinguished Mr. Heathcliff's step restlessly measuring the
- floor, and he frequently broke the silence by a deep inspiration
- resembling a groan. He muttered detached words also. The only one I
- couJd catch was the name of Catherine, coupled with some wild term of
- endearment or suffering, and spoken as one would speak to a person
- present - low and earnest, and wrung from the depth of his soul. I had
- not courage to walk straight into the apartment, but I desired to divert
- him from his reverie, and therefore fell foul of the kitchen fire,
- stirred it, and began to scrape the cinders. It drew him forth sooner
- than I expected. He opened the door immediately, and said,--
- "Nelly, come here. Is it morning? Come in with your light."
-
- "It is striking four," I answered. "You want a candle to take
- upstairs. You might have lit one at this fire."
-
- "No, I don't wish to go upstairs," he said. "Come in and kindle me
- a fire, and do anything there is to do about the room."
-
- "I must blow the coals red first before I can carry any," I
- replied, getting a chair and the bellows.
-
- He roamed to and fro, meantime, in a state approaching distraction,
- his heavy sighs succeeding each other so thick as to leave no space for
- common breathing between.
-
- "When day breaks I'll send for Green," he said. "I wish to make
- some legal inquiries of him while I can bestow a thought on those
- matters, and while I can act calmly. I have not written my will yet, and
- how to leave my property I cannot determine. I wish I could annihilate
- it from the face of the earth."
-
- "I would not talk so, Mr. Heathcliff," I interposed. "Let your will
- be a while; you'll be spared to repent of your many injustices yet. I
- never expected that your nerves would be disordered. They are at present
- marvellously so, however, and almost entirely through your own fault.
- The way you've passed these three last days might knock up a Titan. Do
- take some food and some repose. You need only look at yourself in a
- glass to see how you require both. Your cheeks are hollow, and your eyes
- bloodshot, like a person starving with hunger and going blind with loss
- of sleep."
-
- "It is not my fault that I cannot eat or rest," he replied. "I
- assure you it is through no settled designs. I'll do both as soon as I
- possibly can. But you might as well bid a man struggling in the water
- rest within arm's length of the shore! I must reach it first, and then
- I'll rest. Well, never mind Mr. Green. As to repenting of my injustices,
- I've done no injustice, and I repent of nothing. I'm too happy; and yet
- I'm not happy enough. My soul's bliss kills my body, but does not
- satisfy itself."
-
- "Happy, master?" I cried. "Strange happiness! If you would hear me
- without being angry, I might offer some advice that would make you
- happier."
-
- "What is that?" he asked. "Give it."
-
- "You are aware, Mr. Heathcliff," I said, "that from the time you
- were thirteen years old you have lived a selfish, unchristian life, and
- probably hardly had a Bible in your hands during all that period. You
- must have forgotten the contents of the book, and you may not have space
- to search it now. Could it be hurtful to send for some one (some
- minister of any denomination
- - it does not matter which) to explain it, and show you how very far
- you have erred from its precepts, and how unfit you will be for its
- heaven, unless a change takes place before you die?"
-
- "I'm rather obliged than angry, Nelly," he said, "for you remind me
- of the manner in which I desire to be buried. It is to be carried to the
- churchyard in the eve ning. You and Hareton may, if you please,
- accompany me; and mind particularly to notice that the sexton obeys my
- directions concerning the two coffins. No minister need come, nor need
- anything be said over me. I tell you I have nearly attained my heaven,
- and that of others is altogether unvalued and uncoveted by me."
-
- "And supposing you persevered in your obstinate fast, and died by
- that means, and they refused to bury you in the precincts of the kirk?"
- I said, shocked at his godless indifference. "How would you like it?"
-
- "They won't do that," he replied. "If they did, you must have me
- removed secretly; and if you neglect it you shall prove, practically,
- that the dead are not annihilated."
-
- As soon as he heard the other members of the family stirring he
- retired to his den, and I breathed freer. But in the afternoon, while
- Joseph and Hareton were at their work, he came into the kitchen again,
- and with a wild look bade me come and sit in the house; he wanted
- somebody with him. I declined, telling him plainly that his strange talk
- and manner frightened me, and I had neither the nerve nor the will to be
- his companion alone.
-
- "I believe you think me a fiend," he said, with his dismal laugh -
- "something too horrible to live under a decent roof." Then turning to
- Catherine, who was there, and who drew behind me at his approach, he
-
- added, half sneeringly, "Will you come, chuck? I'll not hurt you. No! To
- you I've made myself worse than the devil. Well, there is one who won't
- shrink from my company. By God, she's relentless! Oh, damn it! It's
- unutterably too much for flesh and blood to bear - even mine."
-
- He solicited the society of no one more. At dusk he went into his
- chamber. Through the whole night, and far into the morning, we heard him
- groaning and murmuring to himself. Hareton was anxious to enter, but I
- bade him fetch Mr. Kenneth, and he should go in and see him. When he
- came, and I requested admittance and tried to open the door, I found it
- locked, and Heathcliff bade us be damned. He was better, and would be
- left alone; so the doctor went away.
-
- The following evening was very wet - indeed it poured down till
- day-dawn; and as I took my morning walk round the house I observed the
- master's window swinging open, and the rain driving straight in. He
- cannot be in bed, I thought; those showers would drench him through. He
- must either be up or out. But I'll make no more ado; I'll go boldly and
- look."
-
- Having succeeded in obtaining entrance with another key, I ran to
- unclose the panels, for the chamber was vacant. Quickly pushing them
- aside, I peeped in. Mr. Heathcliff was there, laid on his back. His eyes
- met mine so keen and fierce, I started; and then he seemed to smile. I
- could not think him dead; but his face and throat were washed with rain,
- the bedclothes dripped, and he was perfectly still. The lattice,
- flapping to and fro, had grazed one hand that rested on the sill. No
- blood trickled from the broken skin, and when I put my fingers to it I
- could doubt no more - he was dead and stark!
-
- I hasped the window; I combed his black long hair from his
- forehead; I tried to close his eyes - to extinguish, if possible, that
- frightful, life-like gaze of exultation before any one else beheld it.
- They would not shut - they seemed to sneer at my attempts; and his
- parted lips and sharp white teeth sneered too. Taken with another fit of
- cowardice, I cried out for Joseph. Joseph shuffied up and made a noise,
- but resolutely refused to meddle with him.
-
- "Th' divil's harried off his soul," he cried, "and he may hev his
- carcass into t' bargain for aught I care! Ech! what a wicked un he looks
- girning at death!" and the old sinner grinned in mockery. I thought he
- intended to cut a caper round the bed; but suddenly composing himself,
- he fell on his knees, and raised his hands, and returned thanks that the
- lawful master and the ancient stock were restored to their rights. I
- felt stunned by the awful event, and my memory unavoidably recurred to
- former times with a sort of oppressive sadness. But poor Hareton, the
- most wronged, was the only one who really suffered much. He sat by the
- corpse all night, weeping in bitter earnest. He pressed its hand, and
- kissed the sarcastic, savage face that every one else shrank from
- contemplating, and bemoaned him with that strong grief which springs
- nat urally from a generous heart, though it be tough as tempered steel.
-
- Mr. Kenneth was perplexed to pronounce of what disorder the master
- died. I concealed the fact of his having swallowed nothing for four
- days, fearing it might lead to trouble; and then I am persuaded he did
- not abstain on purpose - it was the consequence of his strange illness,
- not the cause.
-
- We buried him, to the scandal of the whole neighbourhood, as he
- wished. Earnshaw and I, the sexton, and six men to carry the coffin,
- comprehended the whole attendance. The six men departed when they had
- let it down into the grave. We stayed to see it covered. Hareton, with a
- streaming face, dug green sods and laid them over the brown mould
- himself. At present it is as smooth and verdant as its companion mounds,
- and I hope its tenant sleeps as soundly. But the country folks, if you
- ask them, would swear on the Bible that he walks. There are those who
- speak to having met him near the church, and on the moor, and even
- within this house. Idle tales, you'll say, and so say I. Yet that old
- man by the kitchen fire affirms he has seen two on 'em, looking out of
- his chamber window, on every rainy night since his death. And an odd
- thing happened to me about a month ago. I was going to the Grange one
- evening - a dark evening, threatening thunder; and just at the turn of
- the Heights I encountered a little boy with a sheep and two lambs before
- him. He was crying terribly, and I supposed the lambs were skittish and
- would not be guided.
-
- "What is the matter, my little man?" I asked.
-
- "There's Heathcliff and a woman yonder, under t' nab," he
- blubbered, "un I darnut pass 'em."
-
- I saw nothing; but neither the sheep nor he would go on, so I bade
- him take the road lower down. He probably raised the phantoms from
- thinking, as he traversed the moors alone, on the nonsense he had heard
- his parents and companions repeat. Yet, still I don't like being out in
- the dark now, and I don't like being left by myself in this grim house.
- I cannot help it. I shall be glad when they leave it and shift to the
- Grange.
-
- "They are going to the Grange, then?" I said.
-
- "Yes," answered Mrs. Dean, "as soon as they are married, and that
- will be on New Year's day."
-
- "And who will live here then?"
-
- "Why, Joseph will take care of the house, and perhaps a lad to keep
- him company. They will live in the kitchen, and the rest will be shut
- up."
-
- "For the use of such ghosts as choose to inhabit it," I observed.
-
- "No, Mr. Lockwood," said Nelly, shaking her head.
-
- "I believe the dead are at peace, but it is not right to speak of
- them with levity."
-
- At that moment the garden gate swung to; the ramblers were
- returning.
-
- "They are afraid of nothing," I grumbled, watching their approach
- through the window. "Together they would brave Satan and all his
- legions."
-
- As they stepped on to the door-stones, and halted to take a last
- look at the moon - or, more correctly, at each other by her light - I
- felt irresistibly impelled to escape them again; and pressing a
- remembrance into the hand of Mrs. Dean, and disregarding her
- expostulations at my rudeness, I vanished through the kitchen as they
- opened the house-door, and so should have confirmed Joseph in his
- opinion of his fellow-servant's gay indiscretions, had he not
- fortunately recognized me for a respectable character by the sweet ring
- of a sovereign at his feet.
-
- My walk home was lengthened by a diversion in the direction of the
- kirk. When beneath its walls I perceived decay had made progress, even
- in seven months. Many a window showed black gaps deprived of glass, and
- slates jutted off here and there beyond the right line of the roof, to
- be gradually worked off in coming autumn storms.
-
- I sought and soon discovered the three headstones on the slope next
- the moor - the middle one gray, and half buried in heath; Edgar Linton's
- only harmonized by the turf and moss creeping up its foot; Heathcliff's
- still bare.
-
- I lingered round them under that benign sky, watched the moths
- fluttering among the heath and harebells, listened to the soft wind
- breathing through the grass, and wondered how any one could ever imagine
- unquiet slumbers for the sleepers in that quiet earth.
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